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Friday, April 26, 2013

Drink Up!

Drink Up!
Never been happier for color vision;
never been happier for coloring in a bowl
for it represents regaining life or the lack thereof.
And I’ve never been so glad for pain.

A day ago, sight was depressing
The moon mocked, the stars gossiped, the
bed disapproved, the table reminded, the food
stung, the drinks smug, the pen whispered,
the paper scorn, the people bled.
And I wept.

And I wept
because I needed fluids that sweat won’t cut.
I wept because of the act that I did, that I
consciously did, that was common and normal and
perfect in almost every other context than what I was in.

I need a drink.

My lips were cracking but I couldn’t care less.
My pair seemed to be fissuring as I was careless.
So hydrated before with his drink yet now so desiccated.
Thank god for water.

Yes, thank God.
I have no religion but I prayed.
Desperate? Yes.
The only things that got me through was his faith with me
and my faith in Him.
I pled for my ancestors to look over me and I saw no angels
with wings but I’m glad they did.

Of course, this could all be in my head.
But if anyone is up there, here is a toast.
Love you, thank you and let’s drink up!

Oh yes, make it red wine please.

Saturday, April 13, 2013

My heart

It has been more than a month since I last blogged. Life’s going on pretty well though exams are coming up. School’s been busy though. At least, projects have more or less ended. Im just left with my stats project for the semester. I’m pretty scared for my upcoming exams since I don’t really have a week’s study break between academic time and the exams. But I know for sure, I want to pull up my grades or at least maintain my second upper. I’m determined.

It is 2 weeks to the 2nd month since we got together, 1 day to the 5th month since he confessed and about 4 months for it to be 1 year since we met. Life’s been pretty awesome. He is officially the guy that I have the longest standing relationship with and I can’t believe I still get so damn excited every single time I meet him. I don’t get why he makes me smile every time I think of him. It’s oddly irritating. I love that kid.

Who know how much time has passed since I last drafted a poem….

My Heart
My heart flutters.
Not like a dainty butterfly,
but like a buzzing humming bird.
It’s so obsessive it’s irritating.
Yet it keeps me afloat as I taste the sweet
bitterness of life,
as I wonder beyond the blue openness
and set my sights nowhere.

My heart pounds.
Not like acts of pent up emotions,
but like a covetous husband with the rhythm of ardor.
It’s so possessive it bruises me.
Yet it keeps me grounded as I taste the passionate
acidity of love,
as I wonder beyond the red openness
and set my soul nowhere else.

My heart skips.
Not like the rational lady I try to show,
but like the silly child he brings out.
My heart bares.
Not like the insecure girl I try to hide,
but like the brave woman he sees.

My heart loves
because of him.
My heart loves
because of what he is.
My heart loves
because of what he does.
My heart loves
because of how he loves me.