Why can't i be just like him?!

"why can't i be just like him?!"

remember those tantrum days when you want to be that person so badly cause he has like the brand new toy you really really want but don't have? of course right now you don't see every adult going like this, but maybe in their mind, it's a whole different story.

i remember that whenever i was asked if there was someone i idolized, i'd say "no". this was probably cause i was either too embarass to admit that or that there was really no one whom i idolized. think it was the latter one... *looks away*

haha. but i've been thinking lately, maybe i dont have a one and only super hero in my world, or at least the real world. maybe i think that if i had traits which others had, my life may feel much easier to handle.

went to bensee's blog recently and he was doing this 10 days, 10+9+8+7+6+5+4+3+2+1 things. (the reason why i listed it all out was cause i was too lazy to count or rather too lazy to open up my com's calculator to count) i thought it was kinda cool and wanted to try it out. but got lazy... lagged a few days. then he wrote other posts and THE POST kinda went out of screen. went to his archives but it just wont show me the post. got sian of trying and blog hopped back here.

long story short, i guess, one of bensee's traits is kinda maybe what i'd like to have. the reason why i said "one of bensee's traits" is cause i forgot what trait it was. like i said, i lagged afew days already.... yeap, but bensee is someone i prob look up to (for some reason that i've yet recall, but it'll get back to me... someday).

another person i think is Audrina. i just like the way she can just move on without regrets in what ever she does. she could forsake everything, even if she was on top of her game, and move on, be happy and never look back. (ok, some times she does look back and laugh. oh, and did i mention things just works out for her in the end.) i on the other hand, cant. even if i weren't on top of my game, i tend to hold on to everything i have. this is becoming bad. cause it's making me think twice before i go on to grab another opportunity... if only i could say "i dont want this anymore" and actually let go, my life would probably be happier. (or at least easier)

ok, so those i kinda the 2 people i admire a lil'. after the days of lagging, their names just keep coming to mind when ever i feel like writing this long dued post. hahas. *looks away again*

hahas. hrm... my twitter account is so no happening. i'm not doing anth with it... -.- just followed bensee though... but still not commenting on anth.... guess im just lazy (but i think you guys would have already caught that long ago)

I’m thinking, I’m thinking, I’m thinking!

ok today i went on twitter which is new to me. decided to tweet but dint know what to. since my past 2 (and only 2) tweets were all about how bored i was, i shall make my third special, by tweeting when i wasnt bored. so yea. i dint tweet.

i decided to follow people. so i went to go look and look. but no one caught my eye. i typed poems but nothing really made me wanna look at their tweets. so i thought... it has been a long long time since i wrote a poem. and here i am.

ok, so this poem, i have like no inspiration at all...

I’m thinking, I’m thinking, I’m thinking!
I’m thinking, I’m thinking, I’m thinking!
Yet still not a thought in mind.
With such a short time, my brain seems blind,
Oh, none of my words are linking!

Got to get my head to make phrases,
And stanzas and verses four.
But it would be gore, to talk about war,
I feel like I’m lost in mazes!

So now I’m in a dead end again,
Trying to make this work.
No ideas do lurk, I’m definitely not perk.
Damn, I’m getting a migraine!

Come on, subjects fly to me,
Or else this poem won’t start!
With all my heart, I’m thinking but
It’s inspiration I lack, you see!

bored

ok. today i turned bryan down to go to his house to play so that i could do my work... my plan so failed... then sy asked me out to study, but the only place i could think of to study outside would be bryan's house. so that failed... now waiting to go out later around 8pm++.. bored now...

Happy Holiday

it has been so long since i blogged... princesses-wana-be has been sleeping. but she's up and going now... (i hope)

came back from Hainan. which was really fun :) my neighbour really knows how to plan a vacation. but, so many things happened and oh my god the cleaniness of that place...... that i cant describe it all here. well, i can, but im lazy.. yeap. so wont be doing a hainan post here.

it has been more than a week since i came back so many things to cover today. i hope i cover them. am kinda lazy....

the very next day after arrival i met up with sheng ying and had a good time. just gonna state it here, (check her blog to find out more).

the day that i really want to cover is last tuesday. 14 DEC. MY BIRTHDAY!! it was a good birthday. started off with NANDINI waking me up for a morning surprise. Loved it. but it gave me panda eyes too.

then was homework (which sounds bad) and Bryan (which makes it sound a little less bad) hahas. then i had lunch with Jarjar!! whoo!! havent seen her for a very very long time already. bryan came late, so he dint get to eat (aka lied to his mom). then we went to popular to get a few things (that obviously he paid cause he's like that and too stubborn to listen to us when we said no)

this is the sounds really weird part. bryan and i went to help his mom with the groceries at NTUC, then went wine tasting which was AWESOME. after that by the time we went back to homework, nic woke up and has done the math question that i left blank. so yea, if you havent noticed, we patched back. this rocked.

then bryan had to go swimming while me, sheng ying, cheowlin, kelvin, nic, shao heng, terrence and wei le went for dinner at pizza hut. BIRTHDAY SPECIAL (complementary cake) + CHRISTMAS SPECIAL (complementary singing of "i'm yours" with guitar by an employee) + NIC D SPECIAL (asking for complementary singing of "happy birthday" by the employee and friends) ROCKED THE SHIT OUT OF ME.. HAHAS. P.S. the guy sang flat. but its ok. :)

then we went for pool cause there was no where else to go. CL and SY didnt like the idea but they still went. i guess cause of me. BFFL man!! bryan came later, and the girls went off soon after cause they had to and were getting sian.

i reached home really late that night. 12++am. cause of the guys, refusing to leave... but i guess i was really pampered. all of them (with the exception of terrence), that's 5 guys, sent me home all the way to the doorstep. then they ran back to catch the last train. hahas.

LOVED MY BDAE SO MUCH. but now, i gtg cause i left with only 3 weeks to finish up hw and revision. and in the 3 weeks, there are so many days that i'm not going to be free so.. JiaYous Agnes!

CHEERS-