huh, what promise?

wow. its only today when i realised that someone made a promise to come back on my birthday but broke it...

roger's replies....-.-

so there was one day when i was totally bored and went blog surfing. i went to roger's bloggie and found tons of loop holes, so with the critic in me, i decided to fill them, only to be -.- in the face. this was what i tagged and this was his replies...

agnes: 1. why is ying falltumn??
1. Fall= AutumnSo... Falltumn basically means the 3rd season lah deh...i like to create my own words mah...cannot izzit, 大小姐.
orh...falltumn wor. can, can make new words... of course can. who dare to go against the maths prince?

agnes: 2. i wasnt pissed at your pri class chalet
2. Glad tt u wasnt :)
hahas. see im nice. i dont get pissed often, i guess, i hope. but i will get pissed if you lock me in a room again.

agnes: 3. please add in that aft my gutters i rocked the bowling alley.
3. OK FINE! After having spent 4 games guttering at the bowling alley, Agnes 大小姐 rock the bowling alley for 5 frames only...yes 5 frames ONLY! xD
rocked it means rocked it. even if one frame also good ok. at least i improved. :D

agnes: 4. lele dint fall off bike cause see preety girl.(no further intentions)
4. i said lele fall off bike coz see pretty girl is just to create humour in my blog post lah...HUMOUR! cant u understand it? o.0 i noe wad u wan me to say...lele fall off bike not becoz see pretty girl...is becoz see Agnes!(can be both a gd or bad thing)
he wasnt looking at me ok. and if i recall correctly, he was passing the chlet key to you guys. which means he was facing YOU! NOT me. and he never fall off bikie. he is agonizing the tree and challenge it then he head butt the tree.

agnes: 5. there wasnt only 3 ppl who got hurt. falltumn also injured herself there
5. Yea...many ppl got hurt...STUPID AGNES, WHO ASK U GO RENT BIKES CAUSE SO MANY INJURIES! ok jk...大小姐 dun angry hor...
OI! what stupid!!! wait wait... agnes dont get pissed often. agnes de pi qi very good de... agnes very clam.... ps. i rent the bikes not for you all de wor. is you all want to ride de.

agnes: 6. thanks for wishing my happi bdae but im not old!! still young~
6. Admit it lah...old means OLD!! MUAHAHAHA! STOP LIVING IN SELF-DENIAL...U 16 year-OLD WOMAN!
yea yea yea. you 16 year older uncle. febuary.... so old le. compared to you i look young. and whats wrong with self confinement in denial of a happy place?

agnes: 7. pet name is not didi or something. is yang yang. hai yang de yang
7. ok got it! 洋洋 the fat little hamster (oxymoron?!)
hahas. my ah ma dont want my hamster to be named yang yang. so maybe i can call it didi next??

agnes: 8. egoistic much on the meteor thing??
8. pls lor, its a fact! A FACT! dun believe u shuld go there see...see some1 shining ever brightly! xD lols my ego is getting too HUGE!
yar lor... to think when i first spoke to you i boosted it more with roger the magician.... so regret it.... and i dont like stars. if you read my previous post in late 2008 and early 2009, you'll know...

agnes: 9. i want more durian puff. D24 premium please
9. i tot lele last time buy before liao...but is not premium de...nvm, we shall see how...
no need see la. just you buy i eat. hahas. the puff very nice lehs... we should go buy some day and share.

agnes: 10.i felt someone stalking me...then it turns out to be Falltumn! WAD A SUPRISE! THX MANZ DEAR FALLTUMN! I emo 1 nite less xD.Thx anyway dear. hrm... why see her so happi??
10. Coz i was shocked tt someone actually make her way down from the west to the east. i was emoing wad...den when ppl give u surprise u not happy meh? ok lele, nxt time dun giv agnes surprise if not she 不爽. JK 大小姐, dunnid to be so angry, if not later frown too much then got a lot of wrinkles den 不认老都不行了。
aiyo. you everything also link to lele....-.- grrrr.... surprises are nice what.. like the swans you guys gave me was a giant surprise! thanks everyone who stood up late at night folding and folding and folding the papers. tys. much appreciated.

agnes: 11. am i spamming here??
11. YES YOU ARE SPAMMING
well, now im not spamming am i? i post on my own blogggg. :D

agnes: 12. i think so....12. AND U DUNNID TO THINK SO COZ U ARE!!!agnes: 13. looking forward to your most unteresting replies!
13. yea i noe...now the replies are here...
hahas and they are funny and wonderful and great. and so are mine

agnes: 14. yay! JJlin!! hahas.
14. JJ 林俊杰 ROCKS!! WOOTS~~~!!!
uhuh. strongly agreed!!!! ps. you may want to work on your xiao jiu wo.... or else someone will really tu xue one day because of teaching you. you + weile = agnes die out of loos of blood...

agnes: 15. okok, last tagg hahas...(i hope) you and ying love the seasons yea? i know a song that can describe you couple. we have joy we have fun we have seasons in the sun.
15. Ur last tag huh?
hey, i got put the (i hope) ok!

agnes: 16. you guys can run through the spring meadows hand in hand enjoying the crisp golden au/fall-tumn leaves under the warm summer sun, dripping melted winter snow sweat
16. HEY! I TOT TAG 15 WAS UR LAST TAG...U WINDBREAKER!
aiyo. if you go check up the dictionary, a windbreaker ir something like a jacket or a person who just polluted the world with natural gas! ps. you thought wrong.

agnes: 17 what an epic description! ok, now breathe in and out slowly as you digest everything giving me sufficient time to run before you and ying hit me...
17. Hmm...now lemme recall, where did i last keep my rifle...gotta restock my ammunitions for some killing to be done...YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED!
totally afraid, just like how scared i am about shengying's slapps.... my face.... ps. it is a fault to kill you da xiao jie ok!

so as you can see i was totally diao in the face by him. but i got to admit that he did have wonderful funny replies... besides i proved my A1 descriptive writting to be solid!hahas. fun to talk to him really... so those in green are my recent replies to get my revenge hahas. this is fun! lets continue doing this. lucky 17.

roger has be emoing lately... dont know why. only shengying knows apparently since she is the only person he confides to... arh! im so curious. but owells, have to respect his privacy right? hahas

recently i was acting as a no pay part time piano teacher, teaching roger, weile, cheowlin easy songs.. trying to figure out the notes for han jun's song which he played for me... grrr.... fustrating to keep playing notes until you get the melody.....

today lele's phone had to rest cause someone forgot to charge it with energiser.... so his sister could not contact him and guess what?! she called me!! its like what the..... then i asked him how she got my number... and it was because he was in the shower then his sis go peek at his phone..... gonna kill him for that. i hate it when ppl give my number to others without my permission. it feels wrong!!

owels. tmr im going to malaysia to my neighbours kampong. so i wont be going to jarin's house visit... so sad.... :( but i shall go for the next house visit. dont know whose house will be next....

bored? no, dead.

the word boredom is a definite understatement of what i am feeling now. there seem to be so little holidays left since one month has passed, but yet again the month ahead seems soooo long when you have absolutely nothing to do.

im finding a vocal coach now. hopefully if i suceed in doing so i'll be able to spend away afew of my meaningless days.... its like finally i can do something constructive in stead of being rejected in every job interview cause i am too young.

so im like sick now, which means this isnt really a good time to go and find a vocal coach and destroy my throat, but hey, i have nothing left to do. so singing is the next best thing. besides. if i get a good coach, i wont have to take choir as my cca in JC and i can like try out the others, although i still really like choir...

hrm... there's nothing to do!!! arh!! ok, may be i can start on my photo colar--- ok dont know how to spell. but may... may try and attempt to start. haiz.... got to do smth....

cool illusion

so i went onl9 today, still am actually. and was look through games in mofunzone. and i found this really cool illusion thingy. its no game but its really cool! check it out.
http://www.mofunzone.com/online_games/50_optical_illusions.shtml
it loads kinda slowly (maybe its just my com) but be patient. its worth it!
but you may want to turn your speaker off. the background song drove me nuts.

cute foul mouth little person

so today was an ordinary day. went to play bball at 3. and i only remembered at like 2.40+!! and then i rushed and put on my contacts. (so lucky i put them on. so many of them dropped their specs while playing...) lele promised to be there at 4 but was latefor 1 whole hour, which is 60 mins, which is 3600 secs, which is 3600000millisecs. wow.

but we started playing only at 4 cause of rogers incompetency to get everyone together. hahas/ not blaming him but i seldom get chances like this to suan him for suaning me. hahas. we played against 4 young boys. FINALLY! some one shorter than me. it was nice. cause when you hold the ball and raise your hands, they cant get it.

but still, they were pretty good players and managed to score. (i said score, not win, but they were still good). they played 4 against like what, 7 of us? cause they asked for it. hahas. little people are funny and highly good at playing basketball.... (okok, i admit it. it cause im bad at bball that i feel that they rock at it...-.-)

so we were playing and playing and playing. then i kinda tried to intercept the ball from one of them and almost, i said almost, hit one of them like body to body. so, being little people who are even afraid to touch a girl, (when i was on their team, they only shook hands with lele and did an air shake with me...-.-)he shouted out: "ahh!! she jump onto me"

i mean like what the.... jump onto you?! that sounds freaking sick. i said that but he kinda ignored it and continue to ridicule it by shouting to his friends to becareful or i'll jump onto them.... then he said somethings which dint make me feel too good. so i said. "wahlao! asshole la your mouth"

i saw fear in his eyes... or worriedness... or anxiousness... ok, but overall, i saw puppy dog eyes. but that only works well on guys. girls... not so much. so i kept staring at him during the game. mostly cause i did feel abit bad. hahhas. hey! i got a soft heart for little boys. and guess what? he did the cutest thing!

i was like trying to get the ball when from behind me, i heard "sorry" in my left ear then "that one. just now" in my right. he said that. hahas. so i continued to have my eyes on the ball and whispered no prob. hahas. but i dint think he was too assured and then looked at me later. i smiled and said hi and the high cheerful voice. he smiled to and finally managed to play the game properly. hahas. so cute.

so today i havent got to speak to my dad at all. haiz. my room is history. *roll eyes* but i learnt something from yesterday: quarrrelling always beats running away. be confident and not a coward.

Stop shouting!!

so to day was not really a good day.... but i kinda fa xie on my diary already. so i wont come and nagg about it over here. still, i'll leave a poem here so that you can guess what happened.

ps. since this is my bloggie, i can use any english or singlish or agnes-ish language i want :)

No shoutings anymore
It seemed as easy as 1 2 3
to walk out of the door.
Yet like a magnet, repelled away,
cant stand shoutings anymore!

Pulling my hair and scratching my head.
I know not what to do
except sitting on a bench downstairs
and acting like a fool.

I thought and thought and nothing came out,
i feel as bad as ever.
Tears of anger, of sadness and fear
din't come out as i remember.

Slashed out my phone and watched some videos
in attempt to cheer myself up.
It worked really miraculously
until my dad called to harp.

"Come home now!" "Oh whatever~"
Damn! That did not help.
I feel like a plankton, small and green
stuck in a stupid kelp.

"Arghs!" I cried, "What do i do?"
I ignored my dad's call.
I picked my self up and decided to eat
at causeway point mall.

Eating fish zinger, i felt much better
until my dad's sms came.
He was mad and fustrated still
and it made me feel the same.

I lost my appetite, like i said i would,
and gave weile leftovers.
I went to the mrt, am on the way home.
My hands empty, no clovers.

In my rush, i forgot to thank
my lovely friend, Shaoheng.
He stood by me and did console.
My fortune to have him, so 'heng'

Of course over here, i cannot forget
Weile, my little brother.
Without him, at IMM, i'm still at,
forced to be stuck with father.

And so there i was, walking back home,
thinking of possibilities.
Will they be at home, feeling annoyed,
or will they be full of worries?

Inserting the key, opening the gate,
pushing ajar, the door.
I took a peek, praying hard
for no shoutings anymore.

check it out

hey hey. back again.... was really bored today. was doing some drAWINGS on sunset i nsaw yesterday, played battleships with lele and triumph really nicely. i even was so damn bored that i drew a space monkey. went to lele's blog just now. (to go to his blog, check out the links :) )

apprently, he made a weird rule to ensure he does not write ppl's name in it. but if you read his post, you will defintely know who is was talking about from my prev post. and regarding prattie's question, no, we are NOT together.....-.-"

so this post was acvtually not meant to be one today, for im super sian now. but still, it is existing for the sake of pissing someone off who is currently on the phone with me. hahhas. kudos to him. so since i have achieved my aim :):):) i shall stop here.

once again, everyone, go check out the link. its under BP weile. hahhas. aka, nooby. just writing it here so that when he request me to change his link to nooby, you'll know who he is. and till then, hopefully if i remember, i will always add weile=nooby in my other posts as a constant reminder and piss off.

signing off sincerely by the lovely kind non-irritating wonder big sister,
air-ger-ness

PS. hey lele, i hope you do not read this, for it is not meant for you to read. if you do, in some way or other, please push this memory file into your computer's recyling bin, and may your com go wrong again, so that the things in your recyling bin shall forever be erased.

PS. PS. to the ppl who and feeling weird due to my inconstantcy and incoherent thoughts, please pardon me.

PS.PS.PS. le le is not suppose to read this as he is only allowed to listen.

PS.PS.PS.PS. lele still owes me my life size plushie. :)

PS.PS.PS.pS.PS. CHECK IT OUT! go to lele's bloggie.

SMILEYS till next time. cya.
hope i have pissed that person off.

the return of the curse of the hurting legs

EXTRA EXTRA! READ ALL ABOUT IT! THE CURSE OF THE HURTING LEGS IS BACK!

hahahs. haiz.... i realised that recently its like dejavu. remember the post i wrote about my pathetic legs in taiwan? (go to melodies never end at the side bar. press 2009. press april. press leg story..... or you can just press this link: http://princesses-wana-be.blogspot.com/2009/04/leg-story.html if you are one of the lazy ppl like me)

so recently, i had an abrasion on my left knee, which only hurts now and then with stings. then i got a burst blister on my second toe on my right foot while bouncing up and down on heels during prom. a cut that bled also on my right foot while climbing the ropes in West Coast park today. (apparently i did go out with le le today.) and another burst blister/cut (its really quite unclear actually) on my right big toe.

if only pain was a nice feeling, then i'll be so happy. but they are not, espacially under water. bathing is like............ no words to decribe it... or rather too grossome to. its funny how all my injuries were made in the pressence of one person all the time.... ( not blaming that person... just in a slight attempt to shower, no, add guilt onto the person so as to get a bigger plushie...o.0)

so. today was kinda fun, apart from all the pain and ouches. played in the hazadrous playground, which i declare only safe for children under 12. adults shall be prohibited entry and banned on all grounds under the construction of the entangled playing field. :)

watched sunset with lele. was really nice to see the yoke slowly drown in the sea. dint see moon rise, unfortunately. (dint know this phrase actually existed until lele told me... maybe he made it up) hahahs. will put up pics of sunset and prom when i feel like it and get the photos from my friends. ahahas. but in the mean time, you may go look for it on other ppl's facebooks, for mine is dead, and bugg weile.

my NEW stuff

so just like yesterday, i had nothing better to do so im back here again to blogg. hahas. apparently lele is so inspired by my blog that he decided to blog himself!! hahas. hrm.... today my bro got his PSLE results. i dont think he himself is too happy but my family are all satisfied. as in, we cant just ask for more right? my cousin on the other hand, did preety well with a score of 250+ hahas. may she get into her dream school.

hrm.... wanted to go out with lele today. and poke him lots lots lots (to make up for lost time yesterday) after he apologised on behalf of his arrogant fats. :) wonder if i should still go out with him... (not as in a date but as friends.... things are sounding weird around here..... should use better diction....) hahas

what to write about.... there's no feeling for a poem now so will not write one here.... blogging seems like only entertainment now.... haiz.... so after O's life is like this.... going out everyday is so sian too.... grrrr.... think of something to do.... think of something to do....

ohya! remember that my dad promised me a doggy?? he cant now since my grandma doesnt like dogs and is terrified of them. she passed the law that there could only be the dog or her in the house. so all of us had to abide to it and throw away the doggy thought..... (to my dismay) so in return, i politely asked for (demanded) a NEW room (mater bedroom) with a NEW laptop and a NEW dresser with a NEW bed and a NEW wardrobe. and my deman... i mean my requests were readily met. :)

cheowlin said that this was a good trade and also mentioned that i was qiao zha-ing my parents. but hey. a growing girl needs her privacy (room) and i do need to do alot of projects in JC (lappie) and i have to sleep as a human (bed) and i have more cosmetics than my mum so i need a place to put them (dresser) and comeon, obviously i need new clothes ALL the time (wardrobe)/. so as you can see. nothing is for nothing. everything is for something.

hahas. i like the last 2 sentences. they sound nice. hahas. what should i do now.... should i go out and meet weile? hrm.... let see what he says first. :) till next time! adeious for now.

What should i write about??

hahas. wow. like go out everyday like that. today was quite fun. until SOMEONE told me that i touch him until his fats cry... hahas. ok. it sounds wrong. so we went out again to peng han jia and sheng ying's chang on their first day of work. :) hahas. today weile saw my blog and all he could do was laugh and laugh and laugh. is it really funny?? -.^?? zzz

owells. oh. 2days ago, wenjie actually started a conversation with me. i had no idea what to tell him. i decided to stop the conversation with short replies such as "its ok. ok. nothing special". but then it dint work. but at least our conversation was short. i thought long and hard for every reply i gave, in order not to fall again...

it has been long since i've written a poem here. (here, not saying that i dont wirte poems any where else. :) ) so i think it would be in order to sprinkle alittle of my poetic dis-talents here (since this is my blog and you have no right to stop me from writting. and yes. being the boss of me is good.)... (but doesnt that mean that im my own employee too?? *shakes head vigorously in attempt to get thhought out of head*)

What should i write about??
what should i write about?
no inspiration coming here.
it seems to have nothing better to do
except for going out with peers.

my mind cant come out with anything
its blank and white and blah
come on think! shit mygrain!
work the brain juice larh!

type type type and press press press
push your muscled finger
all the time spent in the gym
what did you do, linger?

arh! this aint working! how to write like this?
with the most genius coconut
oh i know, the root of problem
is cause im using my butt.

so i went to the begining to rewrite my start
and ended reading the rest
wow what a poem i've already wrote
oh butt you are the best!

nice?

"O" stands for Over..

hahas O's are finally over. the last day we get to study together was kinda sad actually. dint think 4years would pass so fast. i wonder what to do for the 2month long holiday. i cant go to work cause i am yet 16...-.- but its ok. dint want to work actually. working was just to spend more time with my friends. so now i shall just be the qian jin da xiao jie i am and, hopefully, forever shall be. hahas.

so far, afew events happened:
1. my clique and another clique, seeing that both are all single gendered, merged.
2. watched 2012 and squashed lele’s hands
3. almost lost my handphone, wallet, and lost my bangles all on the same day
4. went to the gym
5. went for my choir ROD. And was invited to learn new songs and help choir during open house
6. bought a new wallet after sourcing for it for 8hours
7. destroyed my jian fei ji hua by eating half a bowl of noodles after starving for a day
8. played badminton with marcus hoping to destroy the excess weight I gain from the noodles, the barbecue, the Japanese restaurant, macdonalds…etc. (damn! Im growing fat!)
9. made lele my older brother
10. decided to change roles with lele since I was not used to call someone gor.
11. went to shaoheng’s house to play polka cards and hear his bro say “screw you” over and over and over again

And things that are going or suppose to happen:1. Watch paranormal activities and puree lele’s hands
2. have a birthday surprise
3. go for singing lessons
4.teach lele how to play his a dozen a day
5. and anything else which I have yet to think of. :)

Graduation day

It has been four years (almost) since I first stood as an official sec1 student. I never thought how much the school would mean to me when I leave it especially when my first impression was “Wah! Such an OLD school”! My seniors always seem so ‘fake’ with their constant drastic love confessions to BP but it was only during my Graduation Day when I finally understood their feelings.

The school hall was ironically dusty that day I suppose despite the large-scale cleaning I witnessed the day before. It was so full with irritants that it caused so many of us to tear and tear and tear. It seemed how time has flown just past our eyes during the 4 years (and Mr. Hisham’s “3-hour” long speech). Photos brought back memories and apparently worsened the tearing situation.

It was a wonder why the hall was not flooding at the end. I’ve never knew evaporation could happen so fast especially in such a humid-weathered country like Singapore. Perhaps it was due to all our highly absorbent, good quality school uniforms, made by our tailor whom I have not yet learnt the name (but that isn’t important).

I had so much to say to my friends but remained speechless (for once!), much to my amazement. The graduation atmosphere was filled with laughter and of course, salty eye juices. Apparently, in my opinion, Nicholas’s graduation teddy did help out with the décor or something. I wrote cards to my friends but still, I feel that a single card was not enough to express my heartfelt words. But it was almost impossible for me to cram 4years into a tiny card that could be held by a mere 2fingers. ..

sleeeeeep

feeling so tired nowadays. i think i really feel the intense pressure of the O levels now... will have to go back to school for night study later... i think this is really called Fatigue.if only i had more time for sleep. then may be i wont have so many pimples like now... hahas. sleeeeeeeeeep

prelims are OVER!

hehe!!.... prelims are over!! but have to check our papers like tmr... sian.... so today me, shengying, hanjia, cheowlin went out to play... it was FUN!!!! bought tons of stuff... ok fine, fraction of a ton but still went back with bagssss!!! ahhas.... but its too bad that cheowlin dint get her neoprint she wanted soo badly... hrmm quite late ler.... elaborate on this soon

just like everyone

so i just had my english and ss exams this week. am super tired already. the english was hard and the ss sbq was horrendous so i can predict my results already. but i aint gonna say it least they come true... -.- so im going to chiong history, amaths, physics and literature over the weekends. hopefully the emaths and HCL are easy cause i dont have time to revise.

yester was super tiring. studied until 12 midnight. worte 7 essays in 2.5hours. ended up in extreme pain in my wrist and two of my fingers could not stay straight. all because of ss. oh ya, yesterday, 6 of my classmates were "sick" and skipped school to study for ss. if only my mum allowed me to do that...

ok. Yuda is sounding very weird nowadays. he keep saying stuff that leads me to a conclusion that he likes me. however he refuses to say it which is irritating. owels. i realised that that does not really matter now. unless he speaks up, we're not going anywhere. well, actually, even if he speaks up, im not sure if we are going to go anywhere either. maybe i have to admit that maybe i used to like him alittle? im not sure either, since it only lasted like eh.. less than a week. so maybeit was a super short crush. but now... not so much. will see as life goes... that is if he is willing to speak up.

i feel alittle bad... cause im thinking of wenjie now, but in a 3rd person kind of way. no more indulgence or what sort. can this be seen as some kind of betrayal? since we did not actually break off? but then owels, i did tell him that we are no longer together once he gets on the plane so... wells. at least i dont feel any thing now. probably to both the guys. im just a simple little. well, not little girl. who is on the verge of suffocating due to prelims, just like every one else!!

i got the answer!

hahas! i got my answer to that question le!! he asked me this question once. "if one day i said i like you, do you think that there will be any chemistry between us?" i said it is possible. as in like you wont know what will happen in the future right? so i asked him if he liked me. he said" i said IF" so i asked him again. he said no. then i smiled. i dont know why but i smiled. thats weird right? as in people dont smile when they recieve that type of answer but i did. maybe i dint want to go anywhere other than just friends now. i dont know. hahas. but i dont care. i got my answer!! yay! wonder why he asked me that question though...

i heart you online

love this song

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4vVdWHADKto
I Heart You Online
Every morning I wake up with lingering dreams of you and my heart is beguile.
I struggle to think just what else I can do,
then log into my favourite online social networking website

I want to be in your profile picture
I want to be a permanent fixture on your wall
You're so beautiful

Wish I could be in your profile status
Featuring the place where you update us
Maybe then i'll hug you online
I heart you online.

I can see from you information
you like japanese animation and stir fry
well so do I
I read the books that you love reading
I must say you're quite appealing.
Maybe you can poke me sometime
I heart you online.
I heart you online.

Ba da ba da da baa
Ba da ba da da baa
Da da da da da da

Click on my face and tell me that you love me!
You signed your message with three kisses,
could be wrong but i think this is
Your way to convey
That my love is not unrequited
But i won't get too excited
Since you're only virtually mine
I heart you online.

I heart you online
I heart you online.

diary captions

在一起的感觉总是甜蜜，无限的。。。
writing my diary is awkward. cause there are captions here and there saying how sweet love is. today should be one of the Best National Day celebrations i have in school. porobably cause i always hove to work in PA for the past 3 years, so at least i get to feel the festive spirit on my final year.

went out with Cheowlin and hanjia today for lunch. ate KFC. we met Jason Phuah along the way, and of course he followed us, hrm. actually i find him ok. kind of pity him a little, being a social outcast. he is not a bad guy, just horribly horribly horribly annoying. hahas. okay, so our 3-some lunch was spoiled.

i smsed yuda today. which keep reminding me about our conversation yesterday. "to see if i got chance or not" he said this. this keeps spinning in my head. arghs! although he said he was just kiddin but he also said that he will let me cling onto his hand again (did that the 1st time cause i was too cold) hrm... i seriously wonder if he meant it. i just want to know. no purpose actually. just hate cliffhangers. why cant he just say either 'i like you' or if he dint want to mean that, just do not even mention this joke at all?! he makes me think about it all day/night long. and i cant just like blatantly ask him right? that will be so paisei for both of us. hope (very very very very strongly) that he can 自动 tell me. heheh.

ohh... i also learnt something about 2 f my friends. i feel bad teasing them now. i keep saying that something was fishy and now i know that they bactually broke up. i feel so bad. oh and then there is also jan's weird-uncuboid-like cube which i have to solve. stupid itchy fingers. oya, and i also have to fix my freaking email cause harrison sent an virus-ed email to me and i kinda opened it and got affected. -.-.... hope it does not crashes the com. XP.

wonders if YD will read this. i want an answer!!

Dear Diary (everlasting gu dan be ban qiu)

'Gu dan bei ben qiu' fades in the backgound as i start recalling what i encountered today. speaking to wanxin makes me feel like shes the little me. having to go through the same agony of having the prenotice that he'll go away someday. Mel & WX. Mel & WX. JunYong and Jiawei. JY & Harrison. Mel and JY both know that they cant be together always but they are making good use of the time spent together. nothing to worry there, no sorrow too.

wan xin on the other hand is a different case. harrison told her it is going to be agonising for her to wait for him. this is exactly what i went through. and yes. it IS indeed very agonising. wan xin doesnt want to breakup. this is made clear. i feel alot for her. espacially to the little me. the pain she has to go through is definitely not any smaller nor less pain, painless. no. there is nothing i can do to help, unfortunately.

i told her to study with me. i do not know if i want to get closer to her or harrison. or maybe to run wawy from the stars on my desk. i do not know why i did not throw them away. is it that im sentimental or that im still not over him? nahs... i do not feel any pain already. right?

doing homework alone is hard. the prelims are coming up. as if i cant wait for it to come any sooner. harrison is feeling the stress already and he is imposing on wanxin (from how i interpret on what i heard). whether conciously or not, its wrong of im. i do not want to tell him either. coming between people is something i do not want to do again. disaster will happen. that makes me wonder too. how did my friendship with harrison go so bad? aren't friends suppose to say hi to each other when they meet? or is it like what wan xin said-- that he has become a loner? its high time he come out of his shell. why do i care so much about him? does he resemble wenjie?

wow. this is like the longest diary entry ever. but who cares? i'll just continue writing. wanxin agnes wan xin agnes wagnes. hahas. are we alike or totally different? you know, sometimes when i look at wan xin in the eyes, that us when im not distracted by her cute bobbling face, weird emotions just strike me. that brings me back to the taiwan trip i went this year.

i miss the time spending with ZhengJiang, my senior, at the river. poking him was fun, but thats not the point. t is not that i like him but i just find that he is very nice to accompany me late at night as i tried to let go of the fact that wen jie is gone. why am i talking about wenjie again> he should have dissapeared. should have, but couldnt. i wonder if he has a new gf now...

i'm recalling the time when he, his friend, or his friendS msn me. that was nasty. and the worst is, i still do not know who did it. easily trusting, (huajing) i guess i'll just leave him with the clean record and let my impression of him stay nice and lovely. im thinking of my friends now. SY, Cl, HJ, JM and Prat. pillars of support i say....

hrm... i need a hug. $99 teddy bear aint doing its magic anynmore. must have been stuffed out after the hour long hug. i recieved my DSA results tday from RJC. i didnt get in. so much for the sympathetic background huh? prelims goals:
EL- must move up to atleast an A2.
CL- move to a B3... and try not to be the last again.
AM and Phy- allowed to relax to at most A2
the rest- to be maintained at A1.
nothing else is allowed to fall. tough.

im thinking of rongjie now... i do not know why. oh. wait. im thinking of Aaron now, he used to be the one who i could call up and bombard with sorrows. should i call rongjie? OMG. what a thought. we aren't that close yet. ahh... i miss aaron, why must you go to australia? i remember what hazel told me about Bingcai. she says he comforts her. i saw a paragraph of his work today, from prat's phone... maybe i shoould make friends with him. i seriously need someone to confided to now...

what about jeshrei?? looking at the everylasting melody sore cover, there is a small and faint imprint of his name. bouncing in my mind. i wonder if i should talk to him. he seems like one who should be able to understand right?? i wonder why we were enemies in the first place... and how did our relationship get so well whereas mine and harrison grew so far apart.

C-G. CG chord.yes its music. my neighbour just rang my doorbell. asking for help to play a CG chord for him.. hes only 6 by the way. learning how to play row row row your boat. i want to lean how to play gu dan bei ban qiu as it still drifts in my mind. i wonder what wanxin will say when she reads this. i wonder what zhengjiang, prat, hazel, bingcai, jeshrei will say. i wonder what HE will say. im over him. i am. i wish. yes, i am. now i just need medicine to close the wound. i hate medicine. i hope it wont hurt anymore. doctor, may i have that numbing thingy first? oh. wait, im afraid of needles.

no time to lose. three weeks to prelims. prelims prelims prelims. this time, i must get 7 As and more again. i must. wanxin, study with me. jeshrei, talk to me. who to hug me? everlasting gu dan bei ban qiu.

quiz

i was look and other ppls' blogs and stumbled upon this...

Quiz from :wanwan

All of the 14 people must do this quiz, unless he/she doesn't have a blog.Write the names of 14 people you can think off then answer these questions..(You can repeat the name of the person whom sent you this quiz.But the person can't do this quiz again..)

you don't really have to do this if you don't want to.

1. Audrina
2. Rachel Lee
3. Jason Lee
4. Pratyusha
5.Wan Xin
6. Cheow Lin
7. Jie min
8. Sheng Ying
9. Han Jia
10.Jarin
11.Jingyi
12.Terri
13.WeiLe
14.Nigel

1. How did you get to meet 7? (Jiemin)
school. one of me besties.

2. What would you do if you and 13 never met? (WeiLe)
then i'll never be able to play with his pencil box and get new hp games.

3. What would you do if 1 and 12 date? (Audrina and terrence)
wahs. then her bf will go crazy in NS

4. Have you ever seen 14 cry? (Nigel)
Nahs. but heard it alot.

5. Would 4 and 11 be a good couple? (Prat and Jingyi)
Nahs. too lesbian. besides, tons of guys will cry.

6. Do you think 11 is attractive? (Jingyi)
duh!! so many guys are all over her!

7. What's 2 favourite colour? (Rach)
easy! purple!

8. When was the last time you talked to 9? (Hanjia)
eh.. less than an hour ago??

9.What language does 8 speak? (Shengying)
my language!! which is english and mandrian.... and probably alien too!

10. Who is 13 going out with? (Lele)
no one? at least no one that i know of. probably his hp though.

11. What grade is 12 in? (terri)
grade 10! like me. with piano grade 7, going on 8.

12. Would you ever date 10? (Jarjar)
im no les. but we'll make a bubble couple.

13. Where does 5 live? (Wan Xin)
shit!i forgot!. oh, wait. i rmb le. opp 7-11. right? don't kill me.

14. What's the best thing about 3? (Jason)
hrmm. hard question. he is my brother. have to like everything about him for the rest of my life no matter i like it or not.

15. What would you want to tell 10 now? (Jarin)
hrm... help me with cheering comp?!

16. Whats the best thing about 8? (Shengying)
that she speaks alien like me?

17. Have you ever kissed 5? (WanXin)
no! jiawei will kill me

18. What was the best memory you have with 7? (Jiemin)
eh... spending time together in sch?

19. When's the last time you've seen 6?? (Cheowlin)
just now

20. How is 14 and 12 different? (Nigel and terri)
for starters, one has braces while the other doesnt. oh wait. he changed them to retainer le...

21. How did you meet 5? (Wan Xin)
in choir!!!

22. Is 1 your best friend? (audrina)
no doubt bout that!

23. Do you hate 12? (terri)
no! how can i hate anyone with a bright fuchsia pencil sharpener?!

24. Have you seen 4 the last month? (Pratyusha)
duh. i see her 5 times a week

25. What was the last thing you said to 3? (Jason)
wah lao...

26. Have you been to 5's house? (Wan Xin)
nope but i want to!

27. When's the next time you're gonna see 10? (Jarin)
monday... when wew go to school??

28. Are you close to 13? (Lele)
abit bahs... at least close enough to call him le le.

29. Have you ever been to a movie with 4 before? (Pratyusha)
of cos! and with everyone else in sec4 this year.

30. Have you ever gotten in trouble with 8? (shengying)
dont think so. unless getting rushed to eat by tiger is trouble then yesh.

31. Would you give 2 a hug? (rach)
thousands of time.

32. What best thing have you lied to 3?(jason)
that he looks nice in a skirt?

33. Do you know secrets about 9? (hanjia)
i think i know alot but i dont think they are considered as secrets

34. Describe the relationship with 12 and 14. (terri and nigel)
Stranger._.'

35. Any strange best things about your friendship with 9? (hanjia)
shes my laogong....

36. What's the worst thing about 6? (cheowlin)
that she is a XX tomato.. hahahs. dont kill me.

37. Have you ever had a crush on 12? (terri)
nahs. but his sharpener, yes.

38. Does 14 has a girlfriend/boyfriend?? (nigel)
ofcos!

39. Have you ever punch 1's face? (audrina)
punch her? no. hit her accidentally with a microphone and a table and a chair and many other tings, yes.

40. Has 2 met your mother?(rach)
Of course. my mum is the 1st person she see when she came to this world... we're sis for gods sake!

41. Did you ever physically hurt 3?(jason)
yar duh! he is like accident prone!

42. Do you live close 7? (jiemin)
not realli...

43. What's 8's favourite food? (shengying)
lady's fingers?

44. What kind of car does 1 has? (audrina)
she doesnt have a car. even if she does have one, she has to wait till she gets a driving liscense

45. Have you travelled anywhere with 9 before? (hanjia)
uncountable times

46. If you give 14 $100, what will he/she spend it on? (nigel)
not on my $99 teddy bear of cos!


grr. wad kind of quiz is this?! wasted so much of my time. but quite fun larhs... hahas.

the lovey the dovey ww

hrm... today met wan wan and wei wei [heheh. not wen wen liao...] (hahas alliteration!! just thought about it) aft sch... and so pulled wanxin to go 7-11 with me. and harrison still not used to calling him jia wei. His english name and chinese are sooo different!! tagged along... then i realised that they were steadying!! hahas. grr... wanxin dint tell me earlier. owels, i kinda had this feeling that they were together long before. (well. i had this feeling that they were going to be together. if you [pratyusha] know what i mean. hahas another prediction came true!!) realised that my predictions kinda come true these days. owels.

she says she wants to keep it di diao. but i guess not many kinda come read my blog so it should be ok bahs. heehee.

so we went to find a seat and started chatting, and singing, after harrison left. then i taught wanxin emaths. which i dont think was to any avail. hahas. my teaching skills sucks. then wan xin says that she regretted not asking me to her house so that harrison can come too. hahas. grr. use me...

so we decided to do homework together some day. hahas. which means i might get to see them rou ma infront of me.... brrr.... hahas. aiya. i have to stop using the word "hahas" already! its making me feel so uneasy due to edward. from RMUN'09. cause the other time when we had a awkward moment in Rmun, he said what erm add in hahas like in msn to fill in the silence. hahas. see. there i go again. k,i'll try not to use hahas. lets see how many times i fail, yea?

wanxin says she doesn;'t have his blog. which im quite determine to find now and to see what he had written about wanxin for the past month. heheh... [so far so good] i know im nosey...i might pop into wan xin's blog later. hrm... [this is NOT easy... all edward's fault]

hey, i realised that my posts are gradually leaving the shortform addiction!! im actually writing in 'full-form'!! yay me!! ok back to topic. i shall not digress, hopefully.

ok. so wan xin told me that she's afraid of harrison leaving sch after O's or aft his ASEAN scholarship is over. i assure her on ASEAN cos its quite long term ( it is right?. yea , it is). but then after that i felt like crying and she, on the other hand, was smiling like the monkey, holding 2cymbals,and qiang-ing them together. hahas. well, i wanted to cry because i know the feeling and it hurts and it kinda like reopen a wound deep deep deep way deep within. but it was soon stiched up again by tam-bu, the goose and the swan, child of destiny, shinjiru and morning tide.

owels. may be meeting them either on sat or mon depending on when weiwei is free or whether wei wei even wants me too dian deng pao abit or not. hahas. i feel that i was so bright today... ahhas, even though it was in the blazing sun, shinging all its stinging rays on the 2lovebirds.

ok, so yesterday, i passed by my sharp edged drawer and it silced through my leg. it hurts like hell!! so it was the best time to go get ai and guan huai from my family. so i bet with my grandmother on how my family will react. i was spot-on for my mummy and a bit on daddy. hahas. then yesterday, whe it started stinging real bad, i went to take a good look at it. then, from i don't know where, a senario of the same cut appearing on my face. that time, i just stood there in a daze... i was so afraid larhs... when i asked my siblings and friends how they will feel if they were in that senario, all of them showed the same fear-ed face.

grr!! ok!! lets digress from that. hrm...ohh. i just realised i already used hahas. go find it yourself. damn! hahas. ohh!

the ole oak tree

hrm... nothing really, talk about... feel kinda bad that i dint go for the rmun outing (which was eventually cancelled sue to bad attendance) on tue... so i hereby promise to go for the one in Dec if i hav the time that is... thnx Xinmun for actually taking the time to organise it.

am filled with loads of hw now... and am constantly reminded by cheow lin that i indeed have not finished all of them and am slacking off real bad. grr... hrm...

ohh!! i wnt shopping with audrii yesteday!!. its been such a long time!! and we met desmon too (coincidentally) she says... but then it was too much of a coincidence... hahas. so we went shopping for like 3hours and bought nothing for ourselves but a shirt for serene for, guess what, CNY 2010!! hahas. i realised that audrii still keeps in contact with wen jie. owels. it does bugg me anymore. its time to let go... after... 5 months... (as reminded many a time by desmon) hahas.

why are people contantly reminding me of things i do not want to be reminded of?? hahas.

have no idea. but i suddenly thought of this story... (i made it myself so its not very good)

the ole oak tree feels young again
just before it is sliced and cut and chopped down into planks
to become a table for some selfish people
who do not give a heck about the environment
but the planks did not weep

they still stay as strong as ever
as the owners spill water over them
they start to rot and were thrown away
to be made into paper
for the same selfish "cool" people
but the papers did no weep

they became flexible and adapted
to their new owners who scribble on them
before folding them into aeroplanes
to bully innocent "nerds" or "geeks"
as the papers were plucked out of the bubble-gumed heads
they were sent to the shredder
to become strips
but the strips did not weep

they were all put into the same rubbish bin
to be reunited once again
although they were chopped and sliced and shredded
they are now not pieced together
but are peices together
not mended but they were happy

my heart... is it the same? tiny peices of it. smashed with only one mallet....

but i am happy.

Love is like...

Love is like...
an ice-cream? an ice-cube? cool drink??

they mean nothing if there is no heat.
as i cool myself down,
from the warmth deep within,
my mind no longer thinks of you.

i'm no longer at the bridge
durians makes one, anyone, heaty and sick.
i do not want that.

here at my own table,
enjoying my holidays and you are forgotten.
Far Far Away,
not in terms of distance but from my mind

you drifted away when the cool icy chilly wind howls across my face
with a tissue in my hands
to stop the fluid of my ey..nose
from coming out

i bid you goodbye as you disintergrate in front of me
Never to appear again

it is the fault of global warming
this june in summer is awefully cold
as i pull up a blanket to get a little warm
and a cup of coaco, to replace you, is more than sufficient

listen to the disclaimer

hrm... it has been a super long time since i blogged...

lets start with a disclaimer ok?
DISCLAIMER: this IS going to be a very long post. and a very crappy one at that.

thus, having said that, lets give 2secs for all who do not want to waste their "precious" time to, escape. (its given 2 seconds only because it takes less than 2seconds for anyone to click on a button *if you computer isn't soo laggy*)

~2 seconds later~

ok, enough of time watsing. i you still are on this page than im very soory to say that you have to stay on this page as you have already forfeited you chance to click away.

hrm.. after three whole days ok working on RMUN'09 this year, im finnaly awake enough to type this post. (although i still find it hard to keep alert and is already very irritated by my constant typo mistakes. but am still too lazy to change them... stupid hands) hrm... on the 1st day of RMUN, i was like super scared of everyone, like last year, and felt inferior, like last year, since everyone is of a better school than me and that i wasn't in like a debate team like some others are. so i only spoke a miserable 3 times, if i remembered correctly.however, the 1st day was also fun, when we debeted, not about serous issues (damn my typos!), but about LOVE. ahhs... love... love love love love love.

but then, after the first day, i felt much better and managed to squeeze out more energy to raise my plair card more ofteen espacially for the crisis when i was pro-war!! hahas!! after so many years of being anti-war on everything, i finnaly feel the thrill of war!! yea! it rocks. and the best part is that i even have a very reasonable reason for it. im going for war to stop people from being killed. ironic, but yea, it was nice while it lasted until we came into a crompromise and moved onto the other issue which is REALLY BORING.

so the secondary issue involved only 4 members of the P5. apparently, my council ended our 1st part of the crisis later than the other councils and ust when they were about to end their crisis, we have our lovely USA to raise their nuclear alert and make everyone so freaking worried. ahahas. 1st war, than nuclear!! so everyone was saying that my council was the FUNnest. agreed. (to a certain extent) cause after that i became so boring that during the morderated causus (cant be bothered to check up how to spell it. funny. i have been saying that word so many times the past three days. and an extra three days including last years RMUN and yet, i still cant spell it), i spoke something sensible. the chair was like: the chair would like to thank the delegate of Costa Rica for her very sensible comments. and i was loike wide eyes, weird expression as i sat back to my seat. OMG! i spoke sensible. it hardly ever happens.

ok. so than it became even more boring, but still a fun sight to see China, USA, Russia, France bouncng all over the room with their phones arguing (or at least discussing furociously) with their fellow delegations. standing in the mddle of the room with UK as we watched the spectacular sight..ahhhs... good times, good times. then, i wrote a note paper to all of them. it reads ( at least i think it reads like this. cant rmb):
can you all PLEASE come to a compromise so that we can move onto the secondary issue of the SC instead of the crisis so that the rest of the delegate can have a chance to speak up and stop ROTTING at our places. ( apparently, i got all nods)

but i would still like to apologise for my tone in the note though... it wasn't say really nice. and i have to say that i wasn't really very nice during this year RMUN, (although im already voted as nicest delegate who would most likely win everyone's hearts over with my niceness. *do you know how shocked i was whn i heard this?!*) (typoe typos typos... grrrr)

ok, so the crisis WAS indeed settled within the day ( relieve). hahas all the other councils ( at least my delegetion from the other councils) was blaming my council for complicating things during the crisisi.

the next day, ( see, i told you to listen to the disclaimer!! it is even on the title!) i think i spammed thew councik, with my speaches. ok, maybe not spammed, but i at least i spoke alot. well, at least i was quite agitated about the seconary issue since there really issnt anth else to do so i spent my time researching the night before. yea, ok, so i talked, and was given a note by the chair which reads: smth smth good job! you points and spot on and smth smth. keep it up!

hahas. but then, the issue is also resolved. and we had the laxa... ok, i cant rmb what it is called, much less spell it... was about to call it laxative but then..... ok, you get my point. and france wrote 7Haikus on a reso written and PASSED by Ecosoc (i think) 2. and in turn, i decided to write some my self.

RMUN Haiku
Last day of RMUN
was really nice and funny,
France and hs Haikus.

Talked bout refugees
in promise land north korea, ( that is if you pronounce korea as ko-rea with rea as one syllable)
bombed to make more space.

For the world's people
who overpopulates it,
so its a problem.

One solution is
for people to live in space,
Males Mars; girls Venus.

Under the ruling
of superb Costa Rica,
Queen of Universe!

hahas. sorry Japan, but until your non-existant samurai army is up, Costa Rica will rule with her non-existant army and very efficient small tiny mini police force. and to you cutting off our anime, we are not affected! har!

okoks, then, it was the D & D. had fun.. screamed and danced until i remembered that i do have a DSA audition today and stoped in the middle and emo-ed cause i became afraid tha my voice will die tmr and that i have no idea where to report and what to prepare. and that would not have been a problem is i do have the person-in-charge's number. but then, i still enjoyed myself in the end aft i managed to solve the problem. (damn the typos once agains! damn my "again")

owells, i think you trapped people would most probably be falling asleep aft listening to( or at least trying to) my long post, which actually still have alot to say, but will stop here as i am the niceset delegate who would most probably win over everyone's hearts. :D

the clock ticks away, leaving me with only 24 days more to linger

undone comprehension

blahs... im sooo bored now. going to submit my DSA application soon, later today. i rmb one of my friends said that my blog is so one topic. well, now this post is a different one!! ha! in your face... hahas. lol.

the other day, my class made my cher cry. so we made this card and i wrote a poem on it i think it goes like this (i hope i rmb):

Comprehension
We laugh and play, and smile all day,
except for a wednesday in May.
We forgot our work, we did a wrong,
and made your face go long.

We want the sun back, the glow from your face,
so its english we'll (try to) ace.
So to erase all forsaken tension,
We promise to do all our comprehension.

arhs... im sooooo bored.... sian. down with a flu... and have to study later for the 3 consecutive (i think) tests i have on tues. ISP is not fun.... ok, i have to go now... to study... sian....

just a day left...

CT...-.-

Damn i hate my CT marks. just look at it!!

HMT- C5 isn't this the grade anyone just loveed??
EL- B4 so below my expectations!! grr... my heart dropped when i recieved my el paper

the rest all got the same results though
Chem Phy Bio Emaths Amaths SS Hist Lit - A1

hahas. looks like my languages are soo dying. gotto revive it!! argh!! english was so not worth it. i don't normally get B4. why must my teacher pass our scripts to another teacher!! damn!! L1R5=dead. can't believe it!!

owels. sian... i soo wanna go for DSA to RJC, HCJC, NJC and mayb ACJC/ACSI (whichever is better) haiz... i hope that i can like suceed with this kind of stupid results. hope that either my leadership or my sound can take me there...

so, should i go for my 6-7years of experince singing or should i go for my multiple leadership roles?? i sincerely thank BPGHS for all the opportunities it has given me, although i feel that being in the choir din't really give me enough room to stretch. cos my pri sch actually had more oportunities for choir, like overseas and everything. but still, its my passion.

did DSA for sec sch and suceeded. hope that DSA can once again soar me to the horizons. hahas. the sky is no longer the limit, (but my grades are). hahas. have to work harder i guess. have to try to be a 9-pointer, or at least a 7/8-pointer in the O's!! JYJYJY!!!

oh yar... ISP=afternoon sch. i don't understand why it has to be in the afternoon, when we no longer have to go to sch in the morn. i rather they just put it in the morn and get over it by noon!! grr... afternoon. hot, humid and H.... tell you whe i think of smth with H.... oh yar... hell!! hot humid hell. but lucky hae AIRCON... lovely, wonderful, amazing AIRCON.!!

sorry if i sound so hyper... having my "sugar rush" now.... don't worry.. i'll soon go back to being "normal" (that is if i can be normal) and start saying sian to all you "funny" jokes... so if you don't want to be dotted all the time, i think you have 5mins to talk to me... yea.. i think i'll last 5 mins.... hehe....

2 days

so it like has be 2 days wifout a maid and im stil surviving strong!! hahas. why? cos i realised that my mama knows how to do all the hse work!! yea!! ok. just here for a short post. gtg study for CT2. bb ;)

rectangular sun

been doing RMUN for dono how long... eyes tired!! haiz... today my maid left us before her contract is up... (hope you know what i mean... trying to put word nicely) then even before my maid has finished packing her bag, my ah gong told me to take out the trash. i stared at him. i've nt done it b4... (ok, i'be done it once. and i can firmly say it was so long ago, i cant even rmb when it was) lucky.. my mama was like... "father. deng yi xia. man man lai." phew... then i rushed into my room and did the doodles in the post below... so i dint take out the trsh aft all...

damn... not having a maid mayb alittle diff for the comming days. hopefully we can get another before the school week starts. *cross my fingers*... hey! im NOT spoilt ok?! just pampered from young.

my papa was like yall have to learn to do household chores... but then obviously he has to shut when i return with the you dont even do house hole chores... rmbed the time when me n me papa decided to clean the room (as in sweep and mop) i was still young that time... so i was like i dont wanna sweep. with my baby girl charm, how can my papa make me sweep then? so since he dint wana sweep either... no one sweeped the floor... then my papa just took a mop to mop the floor as i watch.,... that counts as me doing household chores too rite?

haiz... soo bored..... think im gona just heck care the RMUN tingy and pull it off to the last min... shall go watch the magical rectangular-shaped sun of night and day... (the TV if yr coconut is not that filling)

doodles

doodled alittle...

fire wall

why do you talk to everyone but me?... everyone can contact you but there is a (fire) wall between us... one that stretches hundreds of miles.

hush little baby don't say a word. mama's gonna buy you a mocking bird. i that mocking bird don't sing, mama's gonna buy you a diamond ring. (nope, not chicken wing. i won't settle for anything less)

and if that diamond ring turns brass, (can i cry now??) mama's gonna buy you a looking glass.
>>fast forward.
broke>billy goat
wont pull>cart and bull

and if that cart and bull turns over, mama's gonna buy you a DOG name rover!! (yeah.. that should stop my crying) if that dog name rover dont bark (oops! said too soon), mama's gonna buy you a horse and cart.

if that horse and cart falls down, you'll be the sweetest little girl in town.

i just want (apart from the diamond ring and the DOG!!) to be the sweetest little girl in your heart. thinking of you... this time, without sweet corn. life is hard without buttery goodness. that is unless you are around to make up for it.

burn that fire wall down for me yea?

countdown to JUNE

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countdown to 100th day

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In a guy...

what do i need in a guy. i ever heard of this joke:
jane: what do you want as a husband?
mary: i just want him to be rich so that i can just 'spend' my life away. what about you?
jane: oh nothing much, i just want him to be handsome and always changing. he has to be with me at home all the time. he has to tell me about the news of the world. he must be able to do alot of different things like dancing and singing and...
mary: gal. all you need is a television!

hahas. i remember when i was like in sec 1 i had this pact made with my friend gora. we came up with a list of things our guy should have. and promised each other to meet up sometime when we grew up and see if our husbands met the citeria. this was what i wrote:

handsome. young. smart. kind. never hit me. pampers me. never cry. can't gamble. can't drink. can't flirt. muscular. can't scold me. loves me. nice eyes. faithful. gives me freedom. aint the boss of me. good kisser. can't say "no" to me. cute. popular. rich. nonvulgar. gives my flowers. can't cheat. cool. hugs me respect me. not gangster. allows me to punish him. give me $$. let me go out with my friends. have a clean record. lovely. goes shopping with me. hot. gives in to me. let me keep doggie. always at my side. boss of company. must praise me. allows me to bully him. gives me presents. gives me sweets. romantic. proposal at the beach. have our own house. likes my friends. has limozines. has sport cars. never let me do work. hardworking.

and thats not even the whole list! butnow my list had been shortened to:

1. has to make me happy all the time.
2. respect me and the people around me.

thats all. huge difference aint it!! hahas. thought alittle about him today. but not in the anguish way. i was thinking. i have actually been through 3 months (89days) wifout him beside me in S'pore, soon it will be the 100th day. owells. another month to go and maybe i'll be able to meet him.

so you meet the 2 requirements there?? why not start with the 1st one?

im think im too influenced by my lit text perhaps.
clarisse: are you happy?
guy montag: (thinks) no, i am not happy. i am not happy.

agnes: and why am i not happy? cause you weren't there to console me when i needed it. you weren't there to cuddle me when i needed your warmth. but as long as you can be here next to me whether now or the next month, even if it means just looking at your face, just one small carasse of your cheek. just sharing the same air for a second, i would feel alot better.

i used to have such a nice time sleeping. but now im haunted by the lovely times we might (not) have when you come back during june.

you are shatter my fragile heart with the little hammer of yours called non-existence. 6 letters, your name, when put together, is against the sovereignty of mankind, of me.

ok, fine, now im thinking of him in the anguish way.

make the pain go away. if love were a river, mine would have been washed away along with my tears. blind cupid ought to remove his blindfold and open his eyes. time has gone and he ought to grow up.

"love looks not with the eyes, but with the mind. and therefore is winged cupid painted blind." what a load of crap! who is that artist? take him away. tear up his canvas and redraw another. one cupid with a billion of eyes. all wide open. no more brains, just one heart. draw him bearded no more diapers. yet do not draw his bow or arrow. for the mistakes he makes by missing a shot causes the heartche of not one but two.

but for my case, you can start counting from one.

thinking??

so i decided to do smth with my blog yesterday. then i realised that it was so late that i frgot to blog... hahas. hahahs. did a small survey for myself cos i was realli bored yesterday. it shows tat im an extrovert, loves to sense things, always percieve and thinking?! i cant believe thinking!! i always thought im a huge sotong, owels... sotongs are quite clever aren't they? at least they hav a way to get away!

ohh. and i found this birthday countdown thingy... so that (to all WYCF ppl) i dont have to go around telling ppl for a straight 13 days when my bdae is... but if you happen to see this... its on the 14 DECEMBER 1993!! get me prezzies!! hahas. yesterday i got a treat frm my little god bro. hahas. (he's a year older than me) apprently i have alot of little bros and sons... even though most of them are older than me... but i have a few daughters and some lao gongs :D

looks like im a full time mum/ big sister!! hrm... thats so weird... hahas

just heard smth from my biological little bro... he tried immitating london tipton from THE SUITE LIFE OF ZAC AND CODY. hahhas it sounded weird.

think shall end it here then.. till nxt tym!

weird thoughts

"he died in the agony of a car crash when all his guts splattered out with blood coated all over...blah blah blah. why must people keep writing their essays/books/stories with this?? why must it always have to do with something that reminds one of kuay chap?! people should be more creative. he should not died in the agony of kuay chap but he died in the agony of ever being in love."

weird thoughts have been going through my mind recently. like the one above... then to come to think about my comment above, i feel that the strongest feeling one could ever evoke in a reader if character should die is just to write a simple, "he died" These 2words are the strongest words which could make one feel sympathy to another. creative "dying" is not as strong. owells.

another weird thought. today, i have my HCL mid-year paper. as i was writing and writing and getting rid of the lactic acid in my right arm and writing, i suddenly had a weird and vey random thought. just before i write my final conclusion, his face popped into my head! unbelievable. at that time, i felt so warm. and then i shooked it out of my head. it was not the right time to feel warmth.

come to THINK of it, again, last night, i dreamt about him. well, it wasn't all dreamy. it felt so real. after 3months of his departure, i began to feel so distant with him. but last night, it was as if an invisible line has pulled us back next to each other where im once again in his arms. i dreamt about him being back in Singapore. and i was there in the airport see him once more. he obviously spotted me. then, we had a nice walk with each other. talking. smiling. enjoying the presence of each other.

then, my dream stopped. i can not imagine him going off again. nono.

are you talking about me in your blog dear? or is it someone else? i hope its not.

you know, before yesterday, i was still thinking if i was wasting my time actually waiting for him. i have never committed myself for this long before. not bragging or anth but, ever since primary 2, i began to "recieve" love from people from the opp gender. i have always been enjoying the joy of recieving, but never have i given the love back.

as i reach secondary school, the love thing becomes more complicated, cos i too start to change and tend to have feelings for the other. yet my mr right did not come. the 1st time i committed myself to another only lasted around less than 2weeks? so that did not hurt much. moreover, at that time, i was constantly recieving love from him, well, and others too. still, i did not know how to give love.

this time, i decided to learn the joy of giving and yes, i did learn that. i realised that sacrifises are necessary, such as saying "no" to another after committment. when you give, these sacrifises are no longer sacrifises. so that was what i did. apparently that did not make some people as happy as he was though.

receiving love and giving love at the same time felt really good. its like entering a spa, making you all refreshed. (im not referring to the time i fainted after a spa. its a whole other thing). so as ou can see, im a "princess" (princessess-wana-be rings a bell now doesn't it?) of recieving love. i have to be loved time and again. over and over.

so when he flew off, well, i thought that we could stand the test of time and distance. but then, i feel soo lonely here. he doesnt talk to me and that hurts. i dont want to say i gave up talking to him, but then he has to first reply me, doesn't he?

so now. the princess is feeling like a pauper. ok, not a pauper. i still have the love from my friends and family. ok, im feeling like a wealthy girl. but that is not enough for me. i need a kingdom, not just a state. and so what is a kingdom without the king? and im very sure, no princess wouldn't want to be queen.

14 DEC 1993

this is kinda interesting. and quite true too!!

what does my bdae say bout me?
You work well with others. That is, you're good at getting them to do work for you.
It's true that you get by on your charm. But so what? You make people happy!
You're dynamic, clever, and funny. And people like to have you around.
But you're so restless, they better not expect you to stay around for long.

Your strength: Your superstar charisma
Your weakness: Commitment means nothing to you
Your power color: Fuchsia
Your power symbol: Diamond
Your power month: May

bdae---lovelife?
6 true lovers.
People wouldn't take you for a passionate person - and that's where they'd be wrong.
You can develop deep emotions quickly, and you're the type most likely to move in with someone after a few dates.
Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 3
You are most compatible with people born on the 5th, 14th, and 23rd of the month.

bdae predicts:
Ever since you were born, you've loved taking risks.
You crave excitement and thrills. You are driven by your passion.
You may have a wild streak, but you also love learning and experiencing life.
You're multi-faceted and can't be labeled. You're sexy, smart, flexible, and stubborn.

bdae says my past life:
You Were A Lion (ok this i don't know if its true)
You have a lethal combination of strength and energy.
You have strong family ties, and close friends are like family to you.

my year says:
Resourceful and practical, you are a quick thinker.
You are very observant - and it's hard to get anything past you!
A total perfectionist, you are especially picky about looking your best.
You're a big dreamer - such a big dreamer that reality can disappoint you.
You are most compatible with an Ox or Snake.

bdae and my rising sign:
LEO (hrm... about the past life thing...)
You are confident, self-assured, and more than a little vain.
And you have a flair for the dramatic - whether you're on stage or causing trouble.
Your spirit can't stay in one place very long.
You like to live in new places and travel the world.
Cultured and sophisticated, you pride yourself on having good taste.
You are an expert in art, music, food, and film.

life path number:
3.
Your purpose in life is to express your unique self.
You are a creative and artistic person with an interesting view on life.
Witty and outgoing, you enjoy sharing your crazy ideas with anyone who will listen.
A total social butterfly, you're the life of any party.

In love, you inspire and enchant your partner. You are often an object of fantasy and desire.
While you are very talented, you sometimes lack the ambition to put your talents in play.
And while your wit carries you a long way, you occasionally use it to mask your true feelings.
Your natural abilities can bring you all the success in the world ... if you let them

depression at happy VCH

today was kinda depressing. well, only the last part of it, i guess. the first time to feel so sad at VCH, the place which holds some of the few happiest moments of my life.

before syf, linning up outside the concert hall, i could just picture the image of a red dot sitting there in the room, waiting for me to enter. unfortunately, i dint just to even get a glimpse of it though.

aft syf, went back to VCH in the evening to hear the results. School number 49. Bukit Panjang Government High School, (heart pumping. adrenelin rising.) SILVER. (adrenelin went off. blood circulation stopped. heart dead.) F***!!!! laid on the chair and clapped with the remaining strength left to support the little life left in me for school number 50.

then... the river flowed. so i told myself not to cry. but i did, alot. then i told myself to not cry anymore already. but i did, alot. then i told myself not to emo. but then i saw the bridge we used to sit at. i pictured him sitting close to me as i hugg him. consoling me. a hig frm him, thats all i needed. so he wasnt here beside me when i needed him. then i told myself i has every reason to emo now...

then i went to eat sweetcorn which helped alot though.. so to all the emo people, go eat sweet corn. it works wonders!! hahas. ok. at VCH, wanted to hugg everyone i know there. but then when i saw the guys i like.... congrats, *shake hands* walk away. cry silently. yea....

finnally returned bunny's blusher aft 4months. which means its been 3 months alr. i'll be ok, its just another 1.4 years, 16 months, round 64 weeks, 480 days, 11520 hours, 691200 minutes, 41472000 seconds, 414720000 milliseconds.

love exists

today, i went to his blogg to take a little peek. there i saw he asking if love existed. wel, to me, it does. but it seems to be from a different dimension. and the price to get it is far too much to give, only the ones willing to sacrifice would achieve love. not writing much now. just wanted to comment on that.:) love exists... i exist... you exist... we exist... love exists... yes, it does.

? thinking of you time and again

?
i was wondring how long i must wait.
tothink there is one other year ahead.
it seems so far, it seems so long.
is this right or is this wrong?

is this worth it? am i wasting my time?
such heartaches cant be cured with a dime.
would you be right here? are you the one for me?
you feel so invisible, oh why can't i see?

is my heart still open? or is it all sealed up
with a kiss and a dollar, maybe a hotdog pup?
do you love me? do i even love you?
if that is so, why am i having the blues?

i ask alot of questions, yes that i know.
is there something wrong with cupid's bow?
did it shoot the wrong arrows and to us they hit?
then draw us closer till the day we meet?

thinking of you time and again
i'm thinking of you time and again
a second less would make me insane
a kiss to send a thousand miles away
will still reach its destination one fine day

a hug so warm will never cool down
a face so cheery won't turn to a frown
the stars are shinning bright in the sky
shows how the days go by and by

leg story

it seems like forever since i blogged.. hahas. ok, today's post may be long or short cos i have loads to sae bout taiwan and cos im fraking tired and wana go sleep now. owels.

maybe i'll juz tok bout one part of the taiwan trip. thepart where my legg suffered. tt happened at the farm. so aft applying mosquito repellant, mosquitos came for my leg and bit twice. ok mayb tt wasn't too bad. listen to the rest.

then, we got to play at a river. it was a very shallow river with slippery algae-covered sharp rocks. so the gals went in to plae first. the guys (in an attempt to act cool i guess) all decided to be anti-river. getting bored, they started to throw stones into the river cos that will cause the water to splash out and make the gals wet. so as the game began, the stones turned into rocks and the rocks turned bigger and bigger.

juz nice, one of them hit my left legg... OOOOUCH!!!! ok, but thats still ok, since i hav 2 legss rite? ok, so after this, whenever i see rocks, i try to go away from them rite. so there was this very nice rock that was flying straight at me. so i decided to turn towards my left. unable to balance with the hurting leg, i had to take another step.

and the other step had to be on a very very sharp rock. causing a hole in my feet. so with a bleeding legg, i limped my way to 'shore'. but limping aint tt bad. tt is if u were not asked to climb a hill!!

then, after dinner, i followed my fren. as i was injured, i walked/limped/hopped slower. so i was lagging at the back. then, she accidentally tripped. but she dint fall (fortunately) and wad fell was a bamboo pole with diameter larger than my fist. guess where it went? so clever, directly to my LEGS again!!.

ok, tt wasn't that bad. cos the pain wont last very long rite? then my cher told us that we cud go to sleep at 11. sinc dere was more than 1hr to go, i decided to to bond wif nature. i sat on the swinging thingy. laid my legs straight and CRAMP!! yea. and that pain lasted. too long.

but as u noe. pain comes and goes. it ended. so i went to bathe b4 going to bed. after bathing, i realised i dint hav a plaster. and the way to get one is to borrow from my fren whose room is on the 2nd floor. so i had to, ok i dont even noe which method i use to get myself there since i had one half cramped leg and one half bleeding leg, to get myself a plaster.

ok. i shall stop here. wont continue wif my leg story. it continues all the way until i reach the S'pore airport u noe. where there are hurtful luggages and trolleys. hahas. i cant believe that even my grandma laughed at me wen i told her the leg story.

gong me in taiwan

hahas. today im going off to taiwan. leaving my hse in bout less den 30mins. is taiwan nearer to china?? hahas. im 路痴. now waiting for the hpotos in my cam to load finish so tt i can delete dem. 10 secs remaining. and.... DONE!! now to delete. hhas. omg.. tis tym, im going off to another country wifout my family, wifout my close frens, wifout my classmates. damn it. frm the few briefings b4, i realised tt i was realli realli gong one. i was soo sotong in everything. and to think the chers made me leader!! shit. i hope ppl dont gt lost. wait. i hope i dont gt lost.... hahas. me n me blur mind.... owels. adieus for now. bon voyage!

last day of studies.

hahas. today is the last day of studies of the term!! yay!! but tmr muz go sch. gt sports carnival. however, my homework pile has oredi piled up. looks like im going taiwan with a load! hahas. owels. juz now, i juz posted in wetpaint. a webbie tt my eng cher set up. looks lyk im the one who posted the longest, compared to my frens. still cant get over my long posts habbit. harhar. owels. i shall prove wrong and stop my post here! HAR!

ok, fine. cudn't feel good about myself wif a short post. so juz gonnnaaaa lllleeeennnnggggtttthhhheeeennn iiiiitttt hhhhhhheeeeeeeerrrrrrreeeee.

ok, its long enough. bb

The day you called to play

ytd, i went to vch for a concert. was realli emo when i walked on that bridge. (tt is wen mel was not busy chasing me...) then juz, i realised bout the tym i showed him a poem. i even pleaded him not to make me say that poem to him. well, i aint gonna anyway. cos tt poem was specially made for someone. and this is for him. enjoy.

The day you called to play
I remember I once told you
On the day you called to play
Do not make me lose the game
And feel really sad one day

And yet you decided to triumph
By not speaking a single thing
Put on yr crown and laughed out loud
“Ha-ha, I am the king!”

A block of wood, I thought you were
And still I’m thinking that now
I am your servant, I am your slave
“Oh hail oh hail” I bow

I thought about the unplanted kiss
How foolish I had been
And yet I feel so lucky
Escaping troubles unforeseen

Your image, vivid in my mind
Has lost, though, all its color
It feels so empty, black and white
In that lonely parlor

You’ve not yet spoken, I don’t understand why
It’s your way of gloat, I guess
And yet my heart, you’d taken away
Still loves you no other less

Oh haul your majesty! Oh hail oh hail!

if i shed tears because i had missed the stars, i would also miss the rising sun.

stupid printer

hahas. looks lyk ytd no xi qing to blogg.. blehs. nw printing my fang kong essay... cher wan us to mo xie. damn it lor. it took us 2 periods to chao xie, den she wan us to mo xie in 1period.. haiz.. den sumore my printer duno why dun lyk to fang kong or smth... nt working...-.- stupid printer. owels... work baby work!! ok, it aint working. haiz. gotto end here. mayb will blogg bout ytd's career fair and todays concert sum other tym. gtg.

nw tt i hav so many chances to tok to u, i juz stare at yr msn n click myself off.

talking to myself

hrmm.. realli bored now.
*pouts mouth*
*thinks*
*moves mouth to the right side*
*eyes looks upwards.. tt is, until start to type this where i need to see the keyboard and the screen*
hahas.
*laughs at own stupidity*
*think should stop writing what i think least readers feel that im weird*

still bored. staring at comp screen and not know what to type. -.- marc has gone overseas, so i cnt plae badminton wif him anymore. wonder if nic is free though. but den he should be at work. damn. im bored.

hrm. let me try a game. juz to entertain myself. i'll try to speak without using the letter 's'. lets start!

hello!
hi!
may i know yr name? (cnt say WHATS yr name)
hrm. eh.. no (cant say YES, AGNES, no ANSWER)
why?
don't know. what about yr name?
cant tell you. (cant say MY NAME IS)

damn. not fun sia... but den not easy. muz think for soo long to answer those questions in bold above. try it! (tt is if yr name has 's'es inside.) ok, getting realli bored.

hrm.. wad cn i do to entertain myself?? i doubt ppl blogg lyk tis. hrm. tink i'll blogg ltr if i hav to xin qing bahs.:)

so many things

ok, today shall be a short post (i hope) cos im rushing to go play badminton wif my neighbour Marcus, n probably wif his twin bro nicholas:D. hahas. and aso becos i hav to go crap up smth bout S'pore langs (english, chi, malay, indian and aso singlish)for the taiwan trip im going on in the march hols.

owels. was thinking of getting private singing and conducting lessons. but den tis year is the crucial year. but i dun wana wait for round a year to start my lessons. i was tinking of getting mr nelson (quay).. duno hw to spell his surname... owels. his lyk a super gud conductor. hope i cn gt him s my teacher. hav no idea hw to do tt anyways. well, will leave tt to my mum. who supports my idea if it is aft Os...

am aso thinking of getting guitar and drums lessons. well, m more into drums bahs. my mum promised me tt wen i reach sec3 but so far it had not happened. will gt a drum set soon... MUST gt a drum set soon. hahas.

tis year, aft Os, my dad promised me a pet. s in a puppy!! woohoo!! i duno wad type i shall gt.. dey all look sooo cute!! i wana gt a small sized one cos it has a longer lifespan. yet i wan a big size one so tt i cn hug to sleep. i wana gt a cute one cos, well its cute. but gting a bull dog is aso wonderful... dogs juz brainwash me...

hahas. looks lyk my post aint v short.. hahas. owels. it seems lyk im getting quite alot of things tis year. hahas. writing it here mayb cos it will prove s future evidence if any of dem decides to go back on their word.

he is lyk now onl9... wonder if i sud heed SOMEONE's advice. hrm. he/she sounds so mysterious. muz feel dang gud in making poor agnes "WASTE HER BRAINJUICE" in finding out who u are.. (ps. i quoted u!) (for all i noe, it mite be wj himself. but i tink its highly impossible)

y make yrself soo invisible infront of me wen i can see u juz fine?? the distance between us may juz be thousands of miles but the distance of the hearts is infinity. everystep i take seem to be futile.

ure lyk a rainbow. bright colourful and wonderous, yet, no matter hw i run towards u, i nvr seem to be able to gt to u. i wished i were a lapricon. cos lapricons live at the end of the rainbow. they are able to get to the rainbow. why cant visible light have a shorter waveLENGTH??

requested by janice

hahas. realised from the chat chat place tt janice wanted me to post bout last year obs. owels. heres part of wad i wrote during the obs:

... breif intro first bahs. in my OBS team, there was Janice, Enqi(MI), Meilin, Sherman(RE), Jovine, Alfred, Chen Han(DO), Wen qi(SO), Yee khang, Xuena, Glorianne, Jason(FA), Lovell, Yan Ping and.. eh, oh ya, me!!

day2 morning:
ytd nite, i had like NO SLEEP!!. cos my team's DO RE MI FA SO were talking and talking and talking. being a lightsleeper, there was no way for me to sleep. my tent mates were all on fire. we shouted at them and i even threw a shoe at them. it hit Chen Han's head unfortunateli. but it dint work. so wen two of my tentmates went to collect the lost shoe, they used it to wack the tent first. very unfortunate of Chen Han to gt wacked again. hahas!!

owels, it stil dint work though. so i spent the nite spraying insect repellant all over, time and again, in my tent (no wonder, none of my tentmates got bitten tt day) while listening to the wonderous childish music of "vampire vampire vampire chez! vampire copy cat vampire chez! vampire pick-piak vampire chez!"

hav to make sure tt tmr nite i gt some sleep. so it means that sum things muz be done to ensure tt.

day3 morning:
hehes... 2 daes over liaos... juz to go to nxt camp site, me trek for like 1/2 hr sia! so freaking tried for me frens... i dint hold much stuff mahs. so cnt complain *smiley face* hahas...

wen we 1st reach new campsite, i was the beach! woohoo!!.. but den out of bounds.. diaos.. -.-" hahas.. hehes. ytd nite, i had a nice time sleeping!!

so i managed to gt my tent juz next to DO RE MI FA SO's tent.

1st the DO RE MI FA SO, as usual were tokin.. den we gals listened cos it was funi funi jokes. there was superman, batman, tribal ppl and even underwear! bahahahs! it was damn funii *baby smiley face* but den i got super tired.. so i asked everyone to keep quiet. at 1st, dey dint wan to.. tt is until i threated to throw shoes into their tent and somehow an orange frm nowhere flew n hit their tent. tt wasnt me!! ok, so everyone agreed to let me snooze for 15mins. tt was a gud 15mins, tt is until, our very zun shi time keeper, janice, woke me up exactly aft it. there goes my sleep.

but the guys wee fast alseep. so we gals toked. bout secrets n bois n stuff. then, out of the silence of the other tent, we heard snoring!! hahas!! it was Sherman!!.. but tts not th best part yet..

after, we heard this "讲故事！讲故事！我睡不着！讲故事！" it was soo funnii to see jason sleep toking. hahas. FUNNII!! *big smiley face*

den in dah morning, there was like wad, 3 mega 1000V batteried torch lights shone onto my face asking "where is enqi? where is enqi?" its like damn man. this is a freaking gals tent. enqi's a guy!!

owels. after another funni thing happened. the guys went to go pee. but den it was so dark that they couldnt see where they were going. and guess wad? they went straight to the ants nest!! hahas!!

so you see. with such a funni nite, hw cn i ever go to sleep??

last day morning:
today i woke up earli, cos everyone was bustling around my tent, keeping their tents. however, i have a sensitive nose, so decided nt to wake my team up yet and let them hav some rest. finalli, wen it was realli time to wake up, DO RE MI dint want to. so i said. if u dont, we'll dismntle the tent!

guess what!! we realli did. and then the tent came crashing down on them. they dint canre and continued sleeping in it. so i began to keep the rods/ frame of the tent. those metals dragged over their bodies seemed to be like massages to them and they refuse to budge!!

then finally i got irritated. cos i cant simply like roll them up in the tent n put it in the tent bag rite?! and so they got up. hahas. it is the last day, but it has most been the FUNnest experience of tent keeping!!


so this is like my obs days. well some of it. hahas. it was FUN!!

ur dere but it seems lyk ur nt

heyys. today i went to sch with a heavy heart, and came back with a heavier heart. mostly because of my common tests marks. haiz. my maths sucked. both of them were one more freakin mark to As...owels. however, tts not the whole reason. i kept thinking about what i wrote to him yesterday. i feel really bad. but i do not regret it. he is onl9 nw, but theres nth frm him. its lyk he is there but he seem like he is not there at all.

he is like so different from the 1st, no, 2nd time i met him. he used to be so attentive, so sweet. but now, he aint even reaponding. i rmb that i asked himto sms if he could spend the time. seems like i dont matter as much to him anymore. i dont know what he is thinking anymore. shouldn't the girlfriend have every right to know what is in that coconut of their bfs??

"love looks not with the eye but with the mind. therefore is winged cupid painted blind" this is one quote of shakespear's midsummers night dream. makes me feel like im hermia and him, lysander. i trust hes true. but i hope so bad that puck wont put love potion onto his eyes and wish that one day, i wont be the serpent like in my ironic dream.

i miss him soo much. his hands, his face, his eyes “so divine and perfect and clear. crystal is muddy" still not hearing anth from him. He seem to be unable to notice me anymore from the crowd of his onl9 frens. Im juz one of the faces. Ignorance...neglect...unspoken…dumbbed...lifeless…dead.

owells. Hahas. Dun gt too emo reading my post. Juz wrote the last line for dramatic effect since im lyk all over literature nw. hahahs. Im still bubble and cheer ful. Read profile. Hahas. Still hope he speaks though. Should I give him a nudge?

byebye CT

wOw! common tests are finnally over!! after days of sweating infront of my books which are in front of my TV, its finnalllly over!! yeah! hahas. the past week was indeed tiring since i was having two subjects per day.(since im taking 8 pure+2 elect subs) [while my counsin hav two subs per week...] phew! actualli come to think of it, mayb ending commontests may not b such a gud ting. cos lyk the common tests were so hard. oni subjects im confident in are LIT, EL, BIO, CHEM... less den half of my subs. owels, lets not spoil the mood!! tym to party!! tt is until nxt week wen i hav to do SPA o level... i noe sian.

currently am working on helping my friends on SCGSIMUNC in short SCMUN. since out of the 6, oni ONE has done it before.hahas. owels. tink im gonna go now. dinner calls!

you left me hanging once again. when will you ever end smoothly? i rote to him this just now. feeling abit guilty bout it though:
heyy. gotta be frank with you but finding chances to talk to you is hard. it depends so much on luck just to have both of us online at the same time. whats more, you are often busy. we aint communicating at all. we can hardly sustain a 10min conversation. thats not the way to go to sustain a relationship, not even touching on long distances. i have no idea whats on your mind and i so want to know. you keep leaving me dissapointed after feeling so excited that you are online finally. hope we can do better next time. and i dont even know when the next time will be. 1 day, 1 week, weeks? maybe 5mins over there is much longer than 5mins over here. if your busy schedule can just fit a little time today, maybe you might want to sms me? cause i have to go offline now. 5mins aint that long you know.

however, they are true heartfelt words.