Proving

I know I've been cold towards you. I don't know how you feel about that. But I guess somewhere deep inside, I hope it's driving you mad. I don't know if I'm trying to prove to you or to myself that I do not need you. Yeapp, you heard me. I can take care of myself. Well, I'm proving it now. Waiting is no longer what you can hold over me cause 15 mins is the max dearie. It's the max.

The new boy

I don't know you well enough. But you are mature and immature the right ways. You are stable. You've got the brains and status. You are someone I know I can compete with. You can allow yourself to let me win when I want it, just to make me happy. I flirt and you flirt back. Aestheticwise, you're not too bad. I may be attracted, I've got to admit. Very eligible. But are you the full package?? I need to know you better first. I've got my eye on you and maybe you've got your eye on me. Touchy touchy. We're touchy towards each other though I've only seen you 4 times and spoke 3 times of the 4. You allow me to be physically close without giving me permission. I do the same. We try to keep our distances though. I know I do. But don't worry. I want to know you better and we'll see how it goes from there

Trusting you once more

I don't understand how this work. I'm confused and a tat bit scared. Anxious is an understatement. But just for you, I'll go with the flow. Please don't hurt me like the heels I wore today.

Still I got to admit, I was, at the very least, pleased.

Rolling my eyeys

I was exaggerating you dumbass. And through the time frame you shouldve known when I wrote it. It's ironic how I push you a way, further from me when I already felt so invisible with you. No, I feel like an obstruction. Maybe this is a defense mechanism to prevent me from getting hurt again. Thinking back gives me shudders. Even more ironic is the fact that this method was derived or inspired by you. I remembered us patching back after our fight yesterday. And then when I checked my phone, I realized that it was just a dream of mine.

再见会不会再见？

感觉不到你与我的友情了。当我的面与别人通电话说没人了。未免也太残酷了吧。算了，就让你走你的，我走我的。如果侥幸遇见了，就勉强吭出一声：＂你好！＂若得走一样的路，你就走在前方吧。让我能在后面默默地想念着昨日的美好，表面上却假装着不认识。再见了。

My path

My path
Move aside and get out of my way.
I don't need you guys to destroy my day.
This is my life. I make the decisions.
Stop experimenting on me; stop making incisions.
You have the best in mind, but that ain't an action plan.
I know what I want; I do what I like with my own feet and hands.
Yes, you gave them to me. I'm grateful to you.
But a gift, once given, can't be returned. You know the rule.
So stop interfering. You ain't know nothing.
My mind is a secret. You're not allowed near it.
Maybe one day you'll learn what ears are for.
You've spoken so much while my words you ignore.
I am still vibrant. I want to see the world.
I'm not an old lady or still a five year old girl.
You've got to understand that I have been trying.
So stop budging in and leaving my crying.
These tears just make me stronger and I'll show you I can live.
I have my own list of chores I promise to finish before I leave.
Patience is a virtue. All I'm asking is for you to wait.
When I come back here, believe me, soaring is what you shall spectate!

朋友

不知道为什么今夜特别多感情，可能是洗澡吧、我通常洗澡都会想些无聊事。说出来还蛮不好意思的、希望我在下面想说说的那些人看了不会飞上天。

吴巧琳。想想看、若是四年前的我，不可能会想象出我们会有这么深刻的友情。在中二那短时期，我们虽然坐的位置很接近彼此，但两个人搜说不出几句话。到现在，我只记得她曾经说过的一句话：＂我把你养得这么大，你还.......＂。她这句话还说不完就开始大笑了。因该是从中三建立感情吧。我们虽然很不同但这搭配还蛮好的。＂一个像夏天，一个像秋天＂很恰当！家伟。这个人，我连何时认识他也不知道，只记得他以前一直买零食给我吃（害得我现在变得这么胖）。可能就是从哪儿开始变得越来越近的吧。谁知道今天会是我其中一个知己。

好了好了，我也累了。改次再继续写吧。已经很晚了，先睡吧。

李佳玲留笔