"why can't i be just like him?!"
remember those tantrum days when you want to be that person so badly cause he has like the brand new toy you really really want but don't have? of course right now you don't see every adult going like this, but maybe in their mind, it's a whole different story.
i remember that whenever i was asked if there was someone i idolized, i'd say "no". this was probably cause i was either too embarass to admit that or that there was really no one whom i idolized. think it was the latter one... *looks away*
haha. but i've been thinking lately, maybe i dont have a one and only super hero in my world, or at least the real world. maybe i think that if i had traits which others had, my life may feel much easier to handle.
went to bensee's blog recently and he was doing this 10 days, 10+9+8+7+6+5+4+3+2+1 things. (the reason why i listed it all out was cause i was too lazy to count or rather too lazy to open up my com's calculator to count) i thought it was kinda cool and wanted to try it out. but got lazy... lagged a few days. then he wrote other posts and THE POST kinda went out of screen. went to his archives but it just wont show me the post. got sian of trying and blog hopped back here.
long story short, i guess, one of bensee's traits is kinda maybe what i'd like to have. the reason why i said "one of bensee's traits" is cause i forgot what trait it was. like i said, i lagged afew days already.... yeap, but bensee is someone i prob look up to (for some reason that i've yet recall, but it'll get back to me... someday).
another person i think is Audrina. i just like the way she can just move on without regrets in what ever she does. she could forsake everything, even if she was on top of her game, and move on, be happy and never look back. (ok, some times she does look back and laugh. oh, and did i mention things just works out for her in the end.) i on the other hand, cant. even if i weren't on top of my game, i tend to hold on to everything i have. this is becoming bad. cause it's making me think twice before i go on to grab another opportunity... if only i could say "i dont want this anymore" and actually let go, my life would probably be happier. (or at least easier)
ok, so those i kinda the 2 people i admire a lil'. after the days of lagging, their names just keep coming to mind when ever i feel like writing this long dued post. hahas. *looks away again*
hahas. hrm... my twitter account is so no happening. i'm not doing anth with it... -.- just followed bensee though... but still not commenting on anth.... guess im just lazy (but i think you guys would have already caught that long ago)
