its already my 3rd post today.....
im starting to wonder if you were even human. dont even know why you suddenly needed to treat me like this. if i did smth wrong, i've given you more than enough chance to berate me. but you didn't. if i didnt do smth right, i've also given you more than enough chance to tell me. but you didnt. you keep saying it was nothing. so who is the one to apologise?
you? for treating me like this for no possible reason? or me? for any reason which you REFUSE to say. what. WHAT? WHAT is it?!
today i felt like a weight had lifted from my back. and this is no ordinary weight. its PW weight. any JC1 person would tell you how heavy it is. i thought nothing could be heavier, but the weight that was slapped right back on this evening was far heavier. so am i losing a friend?
should i be angry? or should i tear? are you worth it? you why cant you say the reason? you can choose. apologise or explain. there's no neither option. i cried in front of you. but you dint say i was wrong. i bitched about you in your face. but you dint say you were wrong. so who is at fault here?
i've always been me. you changed 180 degrees just for me. no one else. me. such honour. if only i could throw it back into your face. your face, i want to hit; roll my palm into a fist and just swing it through. impact.
how are you able to be soo indifferent to my tears? or so heartless to my vulgarities? you know i hate them. and would never use them unless.... unless smth serious. well, doesnt it show that you actually MEAN smth to me. but do i to you?
dont know who's the idiot here. you, for forsaking this friendship and everything we had. or me, for holding on to them?am i suppose to let go? pretend i've nvr known you. its hard. you're harder than HIM i suppose. i dont know anymore.
and why dont i know. cause someone refuse to tell...
