today was kinda depressing. well, only the last part of it, i guess. the first time to feel so sad at VCH, the place which holds some of the few happiest moments of my life.
before syf, linning up outside the concert hall, i could just picture the image of a red dot sitting there in the room, waiting for me to enter. unfortunately, i dint just to even get a glimpse of it though.
aft syf, went back to VCH in the evening to hear the results. School number 49. Bukit Panjang Government High School, (heart pumping. adrenelin rising.) SILVER. (adrenelin went off. blood circulation stopped. heart dead.) F***!!!! laid on the chair and clapped with the remaining strength left to support the little life left in me for school number 50.
then... the river flowed. so i told myself not to cry. but i did, alot. then i told myself to not cry anymore already. but i did, alot. then i told myself not to emo. but then i saw the bridge we used to sit at. i pictured him sitting close to me as i hugg him. consoling me. a hig frm him, thats all i needed. so he wasnt here beside me when i needed him. then i told myself i has every reason to emo now...
then i went to eat sweetcorn which helped alot though.. so to all the emo people, go eat sweet corn. it works wonders!! hahas. ok. at VCH, wanted to hugg everyone i know there. but then when i saw the guys i like.... congrats, *shake hands* walk away. cry silently. yea....
finnally returned bunny's blusher aft 4months. which means its been 3 months alr. i'll be ok, its just another 1.4 years, 16 months, round 64 weeks, 480 days, 11520 hours, 691200 minutes, 41472000 seconds, 414720000 milliseconds.
Friday, April 17, 2009
Saturday, April 04, 2009
love exists
today, i went to his blogg to take a little peek. there i saw he asking if love existed. wel, to me, it does. but it seems to be from a different dimension. and the price to get it is far too much to give, only the ones willing to sacrifice would achieve love. not writing much now. just wanted to comment on that.:) love exists... i exist... you exist... we exist... love exists... yes, it does.
Friday, April 03, 2009
? thinking of you time and again
?
i was wondring how long i must wait.
tothink there is one other year ahead.
it seems so far, it seems so long.
is this right or is this wrong?
is this worth it? am i wasting my time?
such heartaches cant be cured with a dime.
would you be right here? are you the one for me?
you feel so invisible, oh why can't i see?
is my heart still open? or is it all sealed up
with a kiss and a dollar, maybe a hotdog pup?
do you love me? do i even love you?
if that is so, why am i having the blues?
i ask alot of questions, yes that i know.
is there something wrong with cupid's bow?
did it shoot the wrong arrows and to us they hit?
then draw us closer till the day we meet?
thinking of you time and again
i'm thinking of you time and again
a second less would make me insane
a kiss to send a thousand miles away
will still reach its destination one fine day
a hug so warm will never cool down
a face so cheery won't turn to a frown
the stars are shinning bright in the sky
shows how the days go by and by
i was wondring how long i must wait.
tothink there is one other year ahead.
it seems so far, it seems so long.
is this right or is this wrong?
is this worth it? am i wasting my time?
such heartaches cant be cured with a dime.
would you be right here? are you the one for me?
you feel so invisible, oh why can't i see?
is my heart still open? or is it all sealed up
with a kiss and a dollar, maybe a hotdog pup?
do you love me? do i even love you?
if that is so, why am i having the blues?
i ask alot of questions, yes that i know.
is there something wrong with cupid's bow?
did it shoot the wrong arrows and to us they hit?
then draw us closer till the day we meet?
thinking of you time and again
i'm thinking of you time and again
a second less would make me insane
a kiss to send a thousand miles away
will still reach its destination one fine day
a hug so warm will never cool down
a face so cheery won't turn to a frown
the stars are shinning bright in the sky
shows how the days go by and by
leg story
it seems like forever since i blogged.. hahas. ok, today's post may be long or short cos i have loads to sae bout taiwan and cos im fraking tired and wana go sleep now. owels.
maybe i'll juz tok bout one part of the taiwan trip. thepart where my legg suffered. tt happened at the farm. so aft applying mosquito repellant, mosquitos came for my leg and bit twice. ok mayb tt wasn't too bad. listen to the rest.
then, we got to play at a river. it was a very shallow river with slippery algae-covered sharp rocks. so the gals went in to plae first. the guys (in an attempt to act cool i guess) all decided to be anti-river. getting bored, they started to throw stones into the river cos that will cause the water to splash out and make the gals wet. so as the game began, the stones turned into rocks and the rocks turned bigger and bigger.
juz nice, one of them hit my left legg... OOOOUCH!!!! ok, but thats still ok, since i hav 2 legss rite? ok, so after this, whenever i see rocks, i try to go away from them rite. so there was this very nice rock that was flying straight at me. so i decided to turn towards my left. unable to balance with the hurting leg, i had to take another step.
and the other step had to be on a very very sharp rock. causing a hole in my feet. so with a bleeding legg, i limped my way to 'shore'. but limping aint tt bad. tt is if u were not asked to climb a hill!!
then, after dinner, i followed my fren. as i was injured, i walked/limped/hopped slower. so i was lagging at the back. then, she accidentally tripped. but she dint fall (fortunately) and wad fell was a bamboo pole with diameter larger than my fist. guess where it went? so clever, directly to my LEGS again!!.
ok, tt wasn't that bad. cos the pain wont last very long rite? then my cher told us that we cud go to sleep at 11. sinc dere was more than 1hr to go, i decided to to bond wif nature. i sat on the swinging thingy. laid my legs straight and CRAMP!! yea. and that pain lasted. too long.
but as u noe. pain comes and goes. it ended. so i went to bathe b4 going to bed. after bathing, i realised i dint hav a plaster. and the way to get one is to borrow from my fren whose room is on the 2nd floor. so i had to, ok i dont even noe which method i use to get myself there since i had one half cramped leg and one half bleeding leg, to get myself a plaster.
ok. i shall stop here. wont continue wif my leg story. it continues all the way until i reach the S'pore airport u noe. where there are hurtful luggages and trolleys. hahas. i cant believe that even my grandma laughed at me wen i told her the leg story.
maybe i'll juz tok bout one part of the taiwan trip. thepart where my legg suffered. tt happened at the farm. so aft applying mosquito repellant, mosquitos came for my leg and bit twice. ok mayb tt wasn't too bad. listen to the rest.
then, we got to play at a river. it was a very shallow river with slippery algae-covered sharp rocks. so the gals went in to plae first. the guys (in an attempt to act cool i guess) all decided to be anti-river. getting bored, they started to throw stones into the river cos that will cause the water to splash out and make the gals wet. so as the game began, the stones turned into rocks and the rocks turned bigger and bigger.
juz nice, one of them hit my left legg... OOOOUCH!!!! ok, but thats still ok, since i hav 2 legss rite? ok, so after this, whenever i see rocks, i try to go away from them rite. so there was this very nice rock that was flying straight at me. so i decided to turn towards my left. unable to balance with the hurting leg, i had to take another step.
and the other step had to be on a very very sharp rock. causing a hole in my feet. so with a bleeding legg, i limped my way to 'shore'. but limping aint tt bad. tt is if u were not asked to climb a hill!!
then, after dinner, i followed my fren. as i was injured, i walked/limped/hopped slower. so i was lagging at the back. then, she accidentally tripped. but she dint fall (fortunately) and wad fell was a bamboo pole with diameter larger than my fist. guess where it went? so clever, directly to my LEGS again!!.
ok, tt wasn't that bad. cos the pain wont last very long rite? then my cher told us that we cud go to sleep at 11. sinc dere was more than 1hr to go, i decided to to bond wif nature. i sat on the swinging thingy. laid my legs straight and CRAMP!! yea. and that pain lasted. too long.
but as u noe. pain comes and goes. it ended. so i went to bathe b4 going to bed. after bathing, i realised i dint hav a plaster. and the way to get one is to borrow from my fren whose room is on the 2nd floor. so i had to, ok i dont even noe which method i use to get myself there since i had one half cramped leg and one half bleeding leg, to get myself a plaster.
ok. i shall stop here. wont continue wif my leg story. it continues all the way until i reach the S'pore airport u noe. where there are hurtful luggages and trolleys. hahas. i cant believe that even my grandma laughed at me wen i told her the leg story.
Sunday, March 15, 2009
gong me in taiwan
hahas. today im going off to taiwan. leaving my hse in bout less den 30mins. is taiwan nearer to china?? hahas. im 路痴. now waiting for the hpotos in my cam to load finish so tt i can delete dem. 10 secs remaining. and.... DONE!! now to delete. hhas. omg.. tis tym, im going off to another country wifout my family, wifout my close frens, wifout my classmates. damn it. frm the few briefings b4, i realised tt i was realli realli gong one. i was soo sotong in everything. and to think the chers made me leader!! shit. i hope ppl dont gt lost. wait. i hope i dont gt lost.... hahas. me n me blur mind.... owels. adieus for now. bon voyage!
Thursday, March 12, 2009
last day of studies.
hahas. today is the last day of studies of the term!! yay!! but tmr muz go sch. gt sports carnival. however, my homework pile has oredi piled up. looks like im going taiwan with a load! hahas. owels. juz now, i juz posted in wetpaint. a webbie tt my eng cher set up. looks lyk im the one who posted the longest, compared to my frens. still cant get over my long posts habbit. harhar. owels. i shall prove wrong and stop my post here! HAR!
ok, fine. cudn't feel good about myself wif a short post. so juz gonnnaaaa lllleeeennnnggggtttthhhheeeennn iiiiitttt hhhhhhheeeeeeeerrrrrrreeeee.
ok, its long enough. bb
ok, fine. cudn't feel good about myself wif a short post. so juz gonnnaaaa lllleeeennnnggggtttthhhheeeennn iiiiitttt hhhhhhheeeeeeeerrrrrrreeeee.
ok, its long enough. bb
Sunday, March 08, 2009
The day you called to play
ytd, i went to vch for a concert. was realli emo when i walked on that bridge. (tt is wen mel was not busy chasing me...) then juz, i realised bout the tym i showed him a poem. i even pleaded him not to make me say that poem to him. well, i aint gonna anyway. cos tt poem was specially made for someone. and this is for him. enjoy.
The day you called to play
I remember I once told you
On the day you called to play
Do not make me lose the game
And feel really sad one day
And yet you decided to triumph
By not speaking a single thing
Put on yr crown and laughed out loud
“Ha-ha, I am the king!”
A block of wood, I thought you were
And still I’m thinking that now
I am your servant, I am your slave
“Oh hail oh hail” I bow
I thought about the unplanted kiss
How foolish I had been
And yet I feel so lucky
Escaping troubles unforeseen
Your image, vivid in my mind
Has lost, though, all its color
It feels so empty, black and white
In that lonely parlor
You’ve not yet spoken, I don’t understand why
It’s your way of gloat, I guess
And yet my heart, you’d taken away
Still loves you no other less
Oh haul your majesty! Oh hail oh hail!
if i shed tears because i had missed the stars, i would also miss the rising sun.
The day you called to play
I remember I once told you
On the day you called to play
Do not make me lose the game
And feel really sad one day
And yet you decided to triumph
By not speaking a single thing
Put on yr crown and laughed out loud
“Ha-ha, I am the king!”
A block of wood, I thought you were
And still I’m thinking that now
I am your servant, I am your slave
“Oh hail oh hail” I bow
I thought about the unplanted kiss
How foolish I had been
And yet I feel so lucky
Escaping troubles unforeseen
Your image, vivid in my mind
Has lost, though, all its color
It feels so empty, black and white
In that lonely parlor
You’ve not yet spoken, I don’t understand why
It’s your way of gloat, I guess
And yet my heart, you’d taken away
Still loves you no other less
Oh haul your majesty! Oh hail oh hail!
if i shed tears because i had missed the stars, i would also miss the rising sun.
Saturday, March 07, 2009
stupid printer
hahas. looks lyk ytd no xi qing to blogg.. blehs. nw printing my fang kong essay... cher wan us to mo xie. damn it lor. it took us 2 periods to chao xie, den she wan us to mo xie in 1period.. haiz.. den sumore my printer duno why dun lyk to fang kong or smth... nt working...-.- stupid printer. owels... work baby work!! ok, it aint working. haiz. gotto end here. mayb will blogg bout ytd's career fair and todays concert sum other tym. gtg.
nw tt i hav so many chances to tok to u, i juz stare at yr msn n click myself off.
nw tt i hav so many chances to tok to u, i juz stare at yr msn n click myself off.
Friday, March 06, 2009
talking to myself
hrmm.. realli bored now.
*pouts mouth*
*thinks*
*moves mouth to the right side*
*eyes looks upwards.. tt is, until start to type this where i need to see the keyboard and the screen*
hahas.
*laughs at own stupidity*
*think should stop writing what i think least readers feel that im weird*
still bored. staring at comp screen and not know what to type. -.- marc has gone overseas, so i cnt plae badminton wif him anymore. wonder if nic is free though. but den he should be at work. damn. im bored.
hrm. let me try a game. juz to entertain myself. i'll try to speak without using the letter 's'. lets start!
hello!
hi!
may i know yr name? (cnt say WHATS yr name)
hrm. eh.. no (cant say YES, AGNES, no ANSWER)
why?
don't know. what about yr name?
cant tell you. (cant say MY NAME IS)
damn. not fun sia... but den not easy. muz think for soo long to answer those questions in bold above. try it! (tt is if yr name has 's'es inside.) ok, getting realli bored.
hrm.. wad cn i do to entertain myself?? i doubt ppl blogg lyk tis. hrm. tink i'll blogg ltr if i hav to xin qing bahs.:)
*pouts mouth*
*thinks*
*moves mouth to the right side*
*eyes looks upwards.. tt is, until start to type this where i need to see the keyboard and the screen*
hahas.
*laughs at own stupidity*
*think should stop writing what i think least readers feel that im weird*
still bored. staring at comp screen and not know what to type. -.- marc has gone overseas, so i cnt plae badminton wif him anymore. wonder if nic is free though. but den he should be at work. damn. im bored.
hrm. let me try a game. juz to entertain myself. i'll try to speak without using the letter 's'. lets start!
hello!
hi!
may i know yr name? (cnt say WHATS yr name)
hrm. eh.. no (cant say YES, AGNES, no ANSWER)
why?
don't know. what about yr name?
cant tell you. (cant say MY NAME IS)
damn. not fun sia... but den not easy. muz think for soo long to answer those questions in bold above. try it! (tt is if yr name has 's'es inside.) ok, getting realli bored.
hrm.. wad cn i do to entertain myself?? i doubt ppl blogg lyk tis. hrm. tink i'll blogg ltr if i hav to xin qing bahs.:)
Sunday, March 01, 2009
so many things
ok, today shall be a short post (i hope) cos im rushing to go play badminton wif my neighbour Marcus, n probably wif his twin bro nicholas:D. hahas. and aso becos i hav to go crap up smth bout S'pore langs (english, chi, malay, indian and aso singlish)for the taiwan trip im going on in the march hols.
owels. was thinking of getting private singing and conducting lessons. but den tis year is the crucial year. but i dun wana wait for round a year to start my lessons. i was tinking of getting mr nelson (quay).. duno hw to spell his surname... owels. his lyk a super gud conductor. hope i cn gt him s my teacher. hav no idea hw to do tt anyways. well, will leave tt to my mum. who supports my idea if it is aft Os...
am aso thinking of getting guitar and drums lessons. well, m more into drums bahs. my mum promised me tt wen i reach sec3 but so far it had not happened. will gt a drum set soon... MUST gt a drum set soon. hahas.
tis year, aft Os, my dad promised me a pet. s in a puppy!! woohoo!! i duno wad type i shall gt.. dey all look sooo cute!! i wana gt a small sized one cos it has a longer lifespan. yet i wan a big size one so tt i cn hug to sleep. i wana gt a cute one cos, well its cute. but gting a bull dog is aso wonderful... dogs juz brainwash me...
hahas. looks lyk my post aint v short.. hahas. owels. it seems lyk im getting quite alot of things tis year. hahas. writing it here mayb cos it will prove s future evidence if any of dem decides to go back on their word.
he is lyk now onl9... wonder if i sud heed SOMEONE's advice. hrm. he/she sounds so mysterious. muz feel dang gud in making poor agnes "WASTE HER BRAINJUICE" in finding out who u are.. (ps. i quoted u!) (for all i noe, it mite be wj himself. but i tink its highly impossible)
y make yrself soo invisible infront of me wen i can see u juz fine?? the distance between us may juz be thousands of miles but the distance of the hearts is infinity. everystep i take seem to be futile.
ure lyk a rainbow. bright colourful and wonderous, yet, no matter hw i run towards u, i nvr seem to be able to gt to u. i wished i were a lapricon. cos lapricons live at the end of the rainbow. they are able to get to the rainbow. why cant visible light have a shorter waveLENGTH??
owels. was thinking of getting private singing and conducting lessons. but den tis year is the crucial year. but i dun wana wait for round a year to start my lessons. i was tinking of getting mr nelson (quay).. duno hw to spell his surname... owels. his lyk a super gud conductor. hope i cn gt him s my teacher. hav no idea hw to do tt anyways. well, will leave tt to my mum. who supports my idea if it is aft Os...
am aso thinking of getting guitar and drums lessons. well, m more into drums bahs. my mum promised me tt wen i reach sec3 but so far it had not happened. will gt a drum set soon... MUST gt a drum set soon. hahas.
tis year, aft Os, my dad promised me a pet. s in a puppy!! woohoo!! i duno wad type i shall gt.. dey all look sooo cute!! i wana gt a small sized one cos it has a longer lifespan. yet i wan a big size one so tt i cn hug to sleep. i wana gt a cute one cos, well its cute. but gting a bull dog is aso wonderful... dogs juz brainwash me...
hahas. looks lyk my post aint v short.. hahas. owels. it seems lyk im getting quite alot of things tis year. hahas. writing it here mayb cos it will prove s future evidence if any of dem decides to go back on their word.
he is lyk now onl9... wonder if i sud heed SOMEONE's advice. hrm. he/she sounds so mysterious. muz feel dang gud in making poor agnes "WASTE HER BRAINJUICE" in finding out who u are.. (ps. i quoted u!) (for all i noe, it mite be wj himself. but i tink its highly impossible)
y make yrself soo invisible infront of me wen i can see u juz fine?? the distance between us may juz be thousands of miles but the distance of the hearts is infinity. everystep i take seem to be futile.
ure lyk a rainbow. bright colourful and wonderous, yet, no matter hw i run towards u, i nvr seem to be able to gt to u. i wished i were a lapricon. cos lapricons live at the end of the rainbow. they are able to get to the rainbow. why cant visible light have a shorter waveLENGTH??
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